New here. I'm here. I just want what everyone else has.

Hello LucysNotAMexican! I am can totally understand what you going through! You're in a good place to grow and heal yourself from PMO (Porn, Masturbation, and Orgasm) addiction! As a homosexual male myself I come to understand the degrading part on porn not just happened in straight porn, but also gay porn as well. If you are new to the reboot process of healing yourself from PMO! I recommended you to build yourself a strong foundation before starting your journey of NoFap!

First you have to get yourself educated about PMO addiction, website such as yourbrainonporn.com can offered you scientific information how pornography, masturbation, and orgasm effecting our brain!

I also encourage you to go to Mark Queppet's youtube channel called "Sacred Sexuality Project" the link is here: http://www.youtube.com/user/SacredSexualityVlog/videos
You can watch maybe one or two of his videos in a day to get your knowledge and insight about PMO addiction, the drive behind that including thoughts patterns and relapse! The reason I preferred watch only one to two videos per day because you don't wanted to overwhelmed yourself with many informations!

Another videos that explained well about PMO affecting the brain is here (It has 6 part series): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKDFsLi2oBk Whic is beneficial to learn

You also need to understand the pattern behind your relapse and the cause! You have to get the educated about relapse, edging, and the withdraw symptoms to expected so you can better handle them when you go on your NoFap Journey, your emotional connection to PMO! You can browse many threads here to learn about all the information you need to build a good foundation to start your reboot journey!

Another key factor that you have to know is the difference between real healthy intimate sexuality and porn sex! You have to heal your sexuality as well! Because like myself, many of us grow up on internet pornography, so it had teach us the distorted message about intimate sex! Healing our PMO addiction is also change our perception toward healthy view of sex! Our brain was wired to porn sex as the only sex we see, but this is false! For example, in porn sex people don't say "No" to certain sexual activity, they don't even asked to stop to take a break. You can see this is a falsehood in reality. In real life people have choices to say "NO" and be respected of their choices. So porn sex just make us corroding to our relationship!

 

Welcome, LucysNotAMexican.

Going for a run is a good choice. So is giving up PMO. This is a great place...you may not agree with everyone 100%, but it's a place for help and accountability. Stay strong!

 

Hey, you forgot to add that you're also humble.

Welcome to the forum and may the force be with you on your path to glory.

 

Yes, "the bubble" --- Yes, this is the core of it, you say it with a few words.

I know, it's "hard to call it addiction" but it IS an addiction, it is a classic addiction, it is an addiciton of the "escapism type"

An orgasm gives us a rush of good feelings, similar to taking drugs, it helps us to go forget our problems, our stress, our fears, our tasks, our commitments, our responsibility, our decisions.

But when the rush is over, we are confronted with the reality again.

The way out is to actively confront with all that problesm, to actively take decisions and actions, to socialize - then the addiction goes away by itself.

And believe me, life outside the bubble is VERY PLEASANT !