New here, I want some perspective on my journey so far.

Hey guys, I have been on NoFap for about a year now, streaks and relapses. However I am new to the NoFap forum. I am currently on my longest streak of 18 days no PMO. I haven't noticed any considerable benefits as of yet but I am taking it seriously now. One thing I have noticed is the obvious one that I have no shame, the shame you get from rubbing one out to porn.

I am very horny though and I really want a women to have sex with. I just don't have any women to reach out to. I've tried dating websites they haven't worked and I just don't have the balls to do cold approach. I have joined the gym and should hopefully start meeting people but I am an introvert. I find it hard to be social, especially around women.

I go clubbing twice a week but find it very hard to approach girls/dance with them I don't have that core confidence. I drink to improve my confidence but I end up just getting wasted so nothing comes of it. I can't go to a club and just be social and fun like everybody else, it's probably the easiest place to hook up but I just can't talk/dance with women. I have thought of cutting back on the alcohol or stopping completely because it could be ruining my recovery but then I would have to go sober and get into state. I probably should give that a shot. Even still, I don't know if clubbing is the best place.

What else do you guys think I should do? I am currently looking for full time work so I have too much time to overthink and be at home doing nothing. I know deep down that orgasming is really not that what it seems. It's a short term happiness that's why I can gladly say I won't masturbate but my brain is urging for a release with a women. I want that intimacy. I have thought about prostitutes but luckily back out in the last minute because I remember how I have regretted it in the past, I won't do it but I don't know what I should do.