New gay man here.

Well I'm 29 years old. I think that I have PIED. I'm not sure. It all started on March 12th of this year after a prone masturbation session, masturbating to photos of men on an app named Scruff. After this particular session, my dick started to hurt. Then after 2-3 days, my libido dropped and my penis shrunk. I think I got kicked into a flatline. I could no longer get aroused in real life. What good would viagro do me? I also no longer got morning wood. I can get semi erections when talking to gay men via text message and sometimes from photos, but not always. It sucks. Does this mean that my junk still works? Sometimes I hug a pillow to get "aroused" thinking it's a guy and that is, also something I hear that is a big no-no. Two doctors I went to thought that I was normal, so something didn't sit right. One wanted to give me viagro, but I knew that wasn't a good idea. I found YBOP and things started to make sense. I start to think it's in my brain.

I also seek treatment for bipolar disorder. I go to psychotherapy sessions weekly. I'm very susceptible to my depression part. I take Abilify 10 mg and I may be starting Zoloft soon for my social anxiety. Now that is probably thought to be a no-no for the sexual functioning side of things, but hear me out. I have anxiety and depression issues as well. I was near suicidal when I got into this flatline...but I also feel like that there's hope. So I don't plan on looking at porn or masturbating anytime soon to an orgasm so I think I'm doing the right thing.

I hope that I'm doing the right thing. I have no idea what the fuck happened to me. I'm very upset and I regret that night on March 12th. I hope it's PIED and not a venous leak. Typically after this E.D. started, I panicked thinking it was a venous leak but my doctor didn't even know what a venous leak was so I went with him on it and deducted...it's a flatline with PIED.

I'm 10 days into my new reboot, willing to try this for real after many failed attempts. Yes, I failed even during a flatline. I'm hoping that this works out for me. I want a healthy sex life one day and I plan to avoid PMOing.

Now my issues is with the hugging the pillow or artificial arousal without the porn. The hardest part is getting the thoughts out of my head. Sometimes I go to bed and I feel like I need to get "aroused" and I'm struggling getting that mentality out of my head. Very difficult. Any advice or tips for this?

Take care, brethren.

 

Thank you sir. I'm on 16 days now. Flatline and with PIED. No changes but mood swings. I gotta keep it going. I'm very scared and anxious. I hope that I have this PIED condition.