I know exactly what my specific issue is and I am also curious if anybody else out there is in a similar situation. I can not cope with the feeling of emptiness. Every time I feel empty I begin to relapse and have to start over which I refuse to do this time. Also does anybody else get scarily angry when they think about other people having sex? It's not anger it's rage. It's not as if I will harm other people that is crazy but why is this happening? There is only one reason I believe this can be and it has to be due to the excessive M over the course of 8 or 9 years. So, does anybody have any suggestions on how to cope with the emptiness for the early weeks and why is this anger happening?