Need an advice

Hi there, I would like to ask some questions - I am actualy at day 37,
back hen I was on day 34, something interesting happaned:

Because I hit flatline and was sexualy dead, I have got used to it for about 3 weeks. Then very sunny day even in cold weather came and after a school a went home and felt extremely horny. I told myself - lets try if I interact with P at all "probbly mistake" and watched some pics for 15 mins (I wish I have never discovered furry and all around that. In comparison ordinary porn is extremely boring for me [yeah shame for me, but I need to share this bs]), no masturbating or orgasm including strong libido was included. Yeah, I felt that spike that I was missing. Then I realised what am I doing and cutted it out.

More seriously, did I relapsed, or is it just some pseudo bad feeling? When I stopped I fetl like totally broken loosing all benefits and coming back to day 0. Now I feel like in day 25 again but tired and have horrible guilty feelings. I havent slept well in last few weeks btw.

I do feel scared, any advice will help, thank you.