My Way!

I fell so often... it feels like it's been 1000 times. But... here I am standing up the 1001th time.
Everytime I stood up I got stronger...

I've found friends, meaning, my inner self, my inner demons, my future-self, my past-self... I am ready now! Because I know there is no day to be ready for a change. I reallly want this finally to be. I really want to do this change.
I don't want to promise anything anymore.
I don't want to do the big talk even tho I know I will lose for sure.
I just want to do this.
Just once.
One time I want to do this serious.
I can't lose years of my life.... I read post where people developed much... but still are addicted and try it again and again...
I respect that... but I can't do the same. I need to break out...I NEED TO! I WANT TO! I WILL BREAK OUT! I DON'T CARE WHAT IT COSTS ANYMORE!

This maybe sounds desperate... but I don't feel desperate. I feel determined to end this!
I will analysis my strategy and behaviour...

This is... the last promise I give... till I win!....

I promise you that this is the last time you see my fall!

Thank you...

 

Thank you my RIVAL!

 

and here I am reading this with tears in my eyes and respecting my decision! I am so glad that I made it!

 

I've told you. I won't fall again.

 

There is no fear anymore. There is just a boy who can smile again. Thank you, little one.

 

Don't you worry. Pressure is contra productive