My story, like yours.

I read about the messed up minds and actions from my fellow strugglers. Thus, I'm not going there, so you relive my mess. I can say, being 16 days clean, the Cold Shower Therapy is a wonderful part of my reboot, I desire each morning. It's explained in Sacred Sexuality Project and Joel Runyon's "No Excuses".

 

I have come to know my deal is not mostly PMO. I can M w/o P. But don't do it often. Medications has my lebedo fouled. What I do seek, but cancelled, yesterday was a massage. P has messed with my normal orientation, on limited basis. Thus, P encourages me to act out. The massage is also driven by chronic pain issues. And you know what, if the study is there, I bet years of "tensing" the region from the back of my testicals, through buttocks, down hamstrings, may have caused a muscle memory issue of discomfort when I sit, brought on my watching P. OR! And it's a big OR, biking with a slim seat and little space for buttocks to seat, puts pressure on under region, a real bad issue for male byclyclers, old bike seat technology when I realized pain 10 years ago. Thus, cold therapy for P or pain has benefited me with the cold showers, relaxing in the cold, and then relaxing when the pain or M or act out, urge get the better of me. Am I too complicated?