My Relapse experience

Hello fapstronauts. I have rather unfortunate news to share. Last night I MO'ed in a Skype session with one of my "friends with benefits" Things got a little carried away and well you get the point. Oddly though I had not felt the usual despair and hopelessness that I would usually experience. I felt proud of myself for making it 40 days. Which is my longest streak to date. I felt that God Himself was proud of me as well. Day after day I learned to lean not on my own strength but on His. Without God I doubt I could get anywhere near 40 days. I also feel that I know what to look out for this time around. I won't be so surprised when the chaser effect hits me in a little while. I know how to fight it and I feel like I have enough experience to conquer the first week or two more easily. But all in all I grew a bit during my streak. I experienced more confidence in myself. I became more organized and had a lot of energy. My dance skills rose to a new level and I was able to do more homework than before. It is now time for me to get back on the horse and keep riding. I'm learning to accept that I will always make mistakes, but that there is always room to learn from those mistakes. I can finally say I have experienced freedom from porn and I cannot go back to bondage after I've been set free. That's like walking back into a open jail cell. But thanks for reading guys. Blessings!