My long hard roat out of BDSM to good normally sex

Hi Guys,

As you probably suspect, I have problems with porn addiction. More specifically, I started to masturbate with BDSM porn at 16-17, shortly thereafter I became addicted. I just had BDSM thoughts all the time, it got so bad that sometimes I watched porn for days, uninterrupted. Really disgusting, the (TRIGGER) woman whips out the man, kicking him in the testicles or verbally abusing him. I even wrote slave contracts and invented stories / screenplays.

At 18 or so I was fed up and came across NoFap, shortly after that I founded a fetish getting rid of forum, wrote my first tutors how to heal from porn and build up a healthy sexuality again. At first I wrote only for myself, soon came the first who also wanted to heal the fetish and it built a lively community, soon we made first successes.

I do not want to describe my program too much here, I do that, as well as the detailed log, again in the forum, which, when it is online.

Anyway, I had forgotten because of health problems, the forum and it was unfortunately deleted by the host. A few pages I could secure, with which I just start again a new forum.

What bothers me a lot. I had no desire for sex any longer, with a pocket pussy (i only recommend sinsplash [sinsplash me, its the best sexoy in the world]), good Sexpronos and dope as well as some Tongkat Ali (i have ordert by tongkataliblitz com) and Mucuna Pruriens, I could again desire to have sex. I masturbated on the day before yesterday, yesterday and today to normal porn, that went well. Unfortunately today the relapse with the BDSM videos. Already 3 weeks ago, after a trigger, I had BDSM thoughts again and so I had masturbated here as well.

What I make myself:

No relapses!
Every day my affirmations say
3 times a week, at fixed times, drive my program
Outline each masturbation unit briefly
Log here once a week

That was it for me once.

PS: Did you know a journal here, or in an other forum, which is about healing fetish/homosexuality or BDSM?