My Journey

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by ruskyline, May 5, 2015.

  1. ruskyline

    ruskyline Fapstronaut

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    Bio

    · 25 Year old male
    · Been fapping every day after I turned 13
    · Suffer from low self-esteem and anxiety time to time
    · Had some rough time with my ex because of fapping all the time
    o Didn't want to have sex with her, even though she was a 8/10 (that’s what my friends say)
    o Had a lot of problem with staying hard. Sometimes I couldn't get hard no matter how much she tried
    o I felt like a grandpa
    · I've been wanting to quite many times but never really set any goals to commit.
    · I started PMO on May 3rd, it's been 2 long difficult days so far. I hope it'll get easier.

    What I want

    · 120 days of absolutely no PMO
    · If I find a gf type of girl, well I won’t refused to have sex but that’s the ONLY way

    What I hope for

    · Increase my self-esteem and lower my anxiety
    · Stop day-dreaming about the next time that I’ll watch porn
     
  2. GodMyWitness

    GodMyWitness Fapstronaut

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    Good start welcome to the community! Start a journal or join challenge and set up your counter.. wish you all the best!
     
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  3. Trajan15

    Trajan15 Fapstronaut

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    Probably a good idea to find an ap or a group you can work on accountability. It is hard doing it alone.
     
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  4. ruskyline

    ruskyline Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for the reply guys! This time ill freaking make it you 120 days!!
    Best of luck to you guys as well :)
     
  5. ruskyline

    ruskyline Fapstronaut

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    Omg I'm dying!!! How can one not masterbate for 120 days or even more?!?

    I had a second interview today, it went great and I was hired. The onlyrics thing that kinda went wrong (or right depending on how you look at it ), the perskn who was interviewing was an Asian lady and I could not stop checking her out! we made some eye contacts and laughed a lot. Her and her husband own the business and I've already met her husband.

    Omg I really can't recall being this horn ever!! She was Just a 5/10 and my hormones were over the roof! !
     
  6. ado

    ado Fapstronaut

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    Dude that's cause you're on day 5! It's downhill from here man, keep it up!
     
  7. ruskyline

    ruskyline Fapstronaut

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    Almost relapsed today. I kept tellin myself that I've done enough and I should just PMO. I didn't and I'm really proud of myself for that :)
     
  8. ruskyline

    ruskyline Fapstronaut

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    I relapsed over and over and over after my first try.
    The longest run I had was 1 week

    I went out with this beautiful girl yesterday and my goal is to get back on the track starting NOW!

    Hard mode baby!