Hey everybody, I decided to start a journal, where I could tell you about my days in NoFap. I'll post every day.
Day 3 Morning I woke up at 5:45 in the morning - as usual. I jumped out of the bed right after my alarm ringed (sometimes I get up without it) and headed to the bathroom. I washed my face with cold water right after I stepped into the room. After that I brushed my teeth and stepped into my bath, to have a shower. With cold water, of course. Since I always use cold water, it's not a big deal, but I always feel great after it. Around 6:00 AM I cravled out of the bathroom, and read a great book - 1984 - on the couch. Then I ate a fulfilling breakfast and headed to school. (Starts at 8:00) Evening School was okay, I had erection a couple times, after looking at the body of some hot girls, but I focused on something else, and that was it. On the bus - while going home - I had a hard time not looking at the feminim parts of the two beautiful girls who sat right in front of me. After getting home, I listened to music, read, and browsed the NoFap forums for a while. I had some urges, but I easily managed to not to do anything. By the way, I always wear jeans at home, no matter what I am doing (expect having a shower or using the toilet of course ). This way I prevent myself from M, because it takes a lot time, to get those jeans down, so I can quickly realize whats happening and stop myself. With P I have no problem, but I have a hard time getting rid of fantasyes. That was Day 3. It's 21:00, so I'm going to sleep.
Day 4 Morning Nothing special have happened today. I did my morning routine, to wake up my mind, and started my day. School was okay. I still try not to stare at girls' body, but here, in the forum, they say, that this will go away naturally over time. Evening I had erecton like 4 times, but I easily managed to not to fap. I didn't stay busy by the way, I just said to myself that ''I don't give a fuck'', and continued my day. Storytime I had a big urge. I don't remember how, when and why, but I opened a P site, and started watching porn, and to M. I didn't O through. It took me a couple of minutes, to realize, what I just did. I was so disappointed. Then I woke up, and realized,that it was just a dream. It seems, that I had too much taughts about NoFap today.
Day 5 Morning Nothing special happened. I had some small urges. Not exactly urges. I would say erections, because I didn't even wanted to P or M. I had many things to do by tge way, I didn't have time for these useless things. Evening I found the website of Recovery Nation (recoverynation.com) thanks to @Nofapsincebirth . I did the first lesson today (On Day 5). Inter alia I had to write 10-15 resons, why I want to permanently change my life. Not just 3-4 basic ones, 15 reasons. It was really hard to write down the first 10. Then I wrote more than 50. I may shorten it No big urges, etc.
I am glad you found recovery nation. It is a really good step by step program. A lot can be learned from it. Also good work on 5 days! I believe you will make it.
Day 6 Small urges, nothing special. Continued with Recovery Nation's lessons. I had to do lot of chores, but I was happier, than usual Nothing happened that has a relation with NoFap.
Day 7 Today were really busy. I had lota of fixed programs. So much, that I didn't even have time, to the third Recovery Nation lesson. I didn't really have urges. I had erecrions a couple of times, and that was it. I didn't need to force myself to not to fap, I simply didn't want / have the mood. Let's talk about girls. I know only a few girls, like 30, which sucks. Anyway, I see "many" girls glancing at me on public transport vehicles. Maybe I simply haven't noticed it until now.
Estabilishing a romantic relationship Live with integrity Be brave Be confident in my abilities Bring justice to the world Be chivalrous Always do the right thing Make my significant other happy Feel good about myself Make others happy Support, help, inspire and motivate others Be forgiving Not to take things personally Defend the ones who need to be defended Stand out from the crowd Have goals Be a man with manners Live with compassion Sharing my true self with the world around me Being charitable, giving Forgeing strong friendships Developing intellectual depth Expressing spirituality in my day-to-day life Bringing joy to others Being playful Being reliable Being dependable Having a sense of humor Taking responsibility for my life Honesty Humbleness Being considerate of others Being considerate of myself Taking care of myself Living an exciting life Living an adventurous life Developing emotional maturity Risk-taking Estabilishing financial freedom Creativity Overcoming personal struggles Improving myself Physical health Physical beauty Sexual intimacy Physical pleasure Sexual contact Feeling sexually desired Being masculine Feeling unconditional love Developing patience Wisdom Connected to my own feelings Being charming and warm Being charismatic Communicating feelings Taking care of others in need Feeling happy Open-minded to the beliefs and values of others, tolerance These are my values (the sequence does not count) Day 8 I did the third lesson of Recovery Nation. Well, it wasn't that great of a feeling for me, as the second lesson, but it was still okay. Anyway, I also rewrote my Life Vision. I think, that now it describes my vision almost perfectly. NoFap I am surely recognized by girls. At by least 2 every day. I mean who actually stare at me. Anyway. I feel better about myself. I almost feel confident. I'm not sure, that this is related to NoFap, but it may does. About the urges: Nothing. They could not be easier to overcome. But. I am way more horny. Super horny. Even when I don't have an erection, I feel horny Anyway, everything is under control. I have not done anything stupid because of this.
Okay, I am back, after 3 years. I managed to to get a 200+ DAY STREAK this time, but I didnt wrote it into this journal Now I am trying again!