My Introduction and Hello

Hey everyone. I'm Conner and I am 35 years old. I have been addicted to porn for years. When I was 8 I saw my very first nude magazine and I was hooked from there. So for 27 years I lived a double life. My real life which I neglected and my fantasy world which took over my life. In 1996 I was 12 and my parents got internet. I learned about Limewire(P2P) from a friend and started to download porn. A lot of porn. I was able to throw out all my porn mags I collected over the previous 4 years. It was fun because you never knew what would show up. I failed to see that my poor grades and terrible social life were in direct relation to heavy PMO. Girls did like me but I never followed through and would flake on everyone. I just wanted to look at porn and play video games in my room. To be honest I am surprised my parents never caught on. I kept this behavior on. I even got girlfriends in college but they too disappeared from my life. I wouldn't show up for dates and other events. I wasn't really thinking of my partners when we were intimate I was usually thinking of someone else. In my last relationship, the bottom gave out. Thank God I got PIED. This problem scared me so bad that I changed my diet, began to exercise and stopped wasting time on the internet and video games. I dropped from 242 at the time to 188 present weight. The problem was I still couldn't get an erection. I knew about Nofap but never tried it more for a few days and only for semen retention to impress the significant other. I was in full addiction. I started to read more on nofap and realized I was messed up. 6 months ago I gave up porn but not M. I got better and was able to be intimate but I was still not where I felt I should be. I gave up M 27 days ago. I am still experiencing withdrawal symptoms but I know I will get better. That's my story so far. It's nice to meet you all.

 

Excellent post, good luck with everything.

 

Thank you and good luck with you as well.

 

Thanks!

 

Thanks and dang nice streak!

 

Continue to make moves in the right direction. Being on this site has made me contemplate a lot of other hidden destructive behaviours... like my youtube addiction which is now disappearing.