Hello everybody! I finally made it! First time NO PMO for 90 day HARD MODE!!! I have tried to reach this for aboth 3 years now with many relapses and 30 to 60 days streaks but I usually get terrible urges and set get beck to extreme relapses. This is my first post here too, so maybe little info abouth my backgound and addicttion.I try to make it short. I'm now almost 32 years old and my addiction begging back in time when people have slow internet.I was 12 years old and was dowloading P images (just softcore) from my mother work computer on 3,5 diskets becouse we don't have internet at home in that time. Trought years and years and with higher internet and having my PC addiction become worst and worst to extreme levels. TRIGGES WARNING* from sofcore images to femdom, fetish asslicking, farting, humiliation, cartoon, gay porn ,(Gay things make me really wonder my sexuality...becouse 2 years ago when I randomly see naked men I get disgusted..and now Im attracted to this???! I allways like girls and never get atractted to men in real life...HOCD is real thing!) And I worst of all was my eding maraton sessions....damn I was eding for even 10-12 hous a day !!!! Yes that long and at the end I...finish with O. Like 3x-5x a week there was time I was't doing anything then PMO and sleeping. I have to deal with terrible depression, axiaty, PED, sucidal thoughts, lack of motivation, isomnia. So, as you can see I'm extreme case. I feel better after 90 day, but im definitly not fully recoverted and probably need few years to heal. Wish I have some magical pill and advise you can swallow and never look at P again, but I don't. I didn't have any urges this 3 months, maybe becouse I was taking antidepresant, but that was month ago, so I don't know why. Don't let go your addiction this far. I think I would never make it 90 days, but its possible and if I can do it you can too. Take care and thank you for reading this. PS: sorry for my grammar
I'm keeping my fingers for you man! Congrats on 90days! I had the same issues and even more as i made some unforgettable steps. I look forward for you success as good benchmark for my case. I'd happy to follow your journey and journal if you wish to write. Good luck and keep it going!
Thank you all, but I actually don't want to go to this forum to often, because is full of trigger words. maybe once in the while take care and focus on yours lifes.
Day 121 of NOPMO, so its 4 monts now. I don't feel good, lately tired, fatigue, still depression, bad sleeping, stihl have lots of fetish fantasy specially in night when I traing to sleep. Yesterday I star taking 5-htp supelemnt for serotonin, will see if it reduce my depression and fatigue in two weeks. becouse of this Corona situation, I can't go to city try seduce girls a see if this have any effect on women. Also in last few days, I notice some musle tension in my balls...hoply is not a sight of blue balls or something like that.
Day 130. My goal now is 180 NOPMO HARD mode. I supplement 5-htp for 10 day now and its working well. My mood is much better. Maybe tomorrow will go will my friends to park to talk with some girls (I used to be PUA, but I don't like labels anymore). Stay Strong and don't even think about that **** !!!
Buddy You have been a true inspiration for us. One relapse doesn't mean anything. I hope you will get back there and show how incredible you are again!
I'm not so kind of hero....I just used to be a curious child...and porn industry slowly in years turn me is this porn monster.... It already takes years of pain and I dont now how many years will take......but eventually I free myself!!!
You have made big progress, you definitely will achieve what you seek!!! You and hope I too will break these chains!!!!
