I'm not usually one who posts on here. I usually just read the articles others post. My story might be similar to yours. I watch my first p video when I was maybe around the age of 6 yearsold. My father left it out on the coffee table and I woke up popped it into the VCR. It was not a cartoon like I thought it was. My brother walked in on it and shut it off like a good big brother should do. Then a few years later when I was about 9 or 10 years old. My brother showed my my first porn website. From then on I would pmo as often as I could. Although my parents would catch me doing and/or find my history. It didnt really stop me. I didnt really know why it was wrong and why my parents would punish me for it. "Especially my father". When I moved out of my parents house at 18 is when it really became an even bigger problem. I would pmo atleast once a day sometime 3, 4, 5 times a day. All of a sudden I had a job and money so I could afford the really bad stuff. And it was really bad. My life turn into one big party. I smoked pot like a chimney and drank alcohol like a fish. Then when I was 21 I entered my first real serious relationship. From the very beginning she knew that something was off. I hid my addiction from her for close to a year. Then I finally told her. Our relationship has been a rollercoaster of good times and horrible times because of my addiction/infidelity. I was able to be PM free for 480+days. The intimacy during that time was absolutely amazing! But since then I have had 2 relapses. One in July of this year and one in late September of this year. For some reason she chooses to still be with me And I am very greatful she wants us to work out. We still struggle but we love each other. Porn really does ruin relationships, love, self esteem, and so much more.
