My Experience with porn addiction

I have been addicted to porn since around 2014, but the fetish I developed stems back to 2011 roughly. I was 8 at that time and was able to indulge into this fetish very easily through youtube.
For about 2-3 years I would spend hours watching this content but I was never "masturbating" but only holding my genitals kind of just playing around. I was literally 10-11 doing this every day until I had my first PMO.
The rest is obviously history and it is very upsetting that it has been essentially 13 years since I made it a part of me to indulge in this fetish.
I am not sure how I came to like what I do but it is a huge secret for me that nobody knows and never has. The lengths I have always taken to mask it have always been great as well.

 

At first it was youtube, than the porn site addictions, then instagram baddies, then tiktok etc. All of which I had downloads, screenshots, screen recordings and links.
I had hundreds of porn links saved in my notes that i figured I would come back to, which is funny considering novelty is a huge part of this addiction. I had hundr