My everyday battle ●•●

Hey everyone reading this thread
I m a 17 Yrs old male
I have been doing these PMO thing for quite a while now
It has affected my life in a very bad manner. From feeling weak to having a distracted brain at all time and many other worse thing. PMO has led me to all this
But no more now I am committed to change now
Now it's no more a try to quit; it's has become the prime task to achieve a PMO free healthy life
I would really appreciate your suggestions and comments and would entrail those that I consider to be effective for the cause
So guys I will work hard this time to change myself and also to become a motivation for someone trying to do the same

 

So day 1
has pretty much ended it was an overall very good day. I got no urges today for p or m both. Last week I joined a gym too. I am trying to put my energies to the betterment of my physical and mental health. I am A little worried for tomorrow as I will be home alone for 3 to 4 hours and being alone has proven very harmful for me to abstain from p and m . I will not do it tomorrow not at any cost....

 

Thank you very much Man
I will try to remain active over here for that time period....
I don't know but things seem to overtake me when I m alone
The desire to peek at that po** shit sky rockets at such moments
I will try my best to maintain things under my control ......

 

Day 2
Today was a disaster
Nothing happeded according to me
I am feeling depression settling inside me now. Its just like i wanna DIE now .
I watched the p thing for like 4 to 5 hours today
Let me explain the whole thing in detail
After about 10to 15minute of absolut lonliness in my home i decided to watch some popular trending videos on youtube.. inside my mind i knew where these things will eventually take me to but still....
As we all know these days trending videos contain a lot of shitty and bad content in them and they have got a much better way to show us all teenagers all this stuff the make such dialogues that are double meaning and can easily trigger someone like myself.. then it was clear to my brain what the next step was to attain the FAKE PLEASURE it desired.,, one thing led to another and other.. each thing getting more and more erotic and shitty..... then finally i lost all controle of my mind And u can easily what the hell i did after that !!!
I am feeling absolutely awful right now
For waisting those precious hours and also for breaking my streak on the second day itself ..
please help me guys tell me what can i do now.. i dont know how to treat this devil inside me . Everytime im alone it undertakes my controle and make me do all these things that i hate.. my sole energy is getting depleated .…
I dont know will i ever be able to achieve sucess ever or not !!!!

 

So I can see what things are like my dear self

So sosos I can see what things are like my dear self there is no one for u here ,,not only here but I will say there is no one for you anywhere in this world
Soo... what do u think I m going to leave myself like this; feeling like a piece of shit every time. No
I will not leave ... I m not here to quit
I remember why I am here.. I remember the amount of trust my parents have on myself... the want me to succeed in life .. and I will show them that I care about their emotions.... I respect everything that they have done for me how much hard work they have done to provide me the opportunities that they never received their self .... I must take full advantage of everything I have
I know porn and dopamine are not enough to break me apart I am much more then this I must reveal my full potential ......
Not for me... but for my mom
For my dad
I will do this with even more dedication everyday and no more regrets now ... I will not do the slightest thing that may trigger me ...
I am here for myself

 

Thank you very much man !!
U know at this age we don't know what we are doing. It's just like porn has enslaved us...
But when I ask myself if I am feeling good doing all this stuff; watching all these things and doing these actions only then my sole and my inner consciousness tells me it's not the things for me .. It's not the thing to do .. I have got a bunch of other more important stuff to do every single hour could be made super productive.. every minute we could make a step forward towards success.. towards our next level ..
I don't understand how strong the network of porn is .. everywhere it's written like porn is harmless .. It's a need for your body ... bla bla bla
It's time to break the chains. And let my body feel the real energy of a MAN...

 

#Daily check in
Day 0 completed
The day was pretty fine. I was busy doing a lot of my work so I didn't even get time to think about all of that.. No urges today.. I went to the gym did some biceps and triceps workout .. So I spent my energy in good purposes .. feeling good after all this..
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Hey man thanks for your suggestion !!!
I know that i am a little strict with myself but i think its the way i can defeat the addiction..
And in my opinion being 17 is not what i should care about 17 is just a number.. people achieve great heights at an age even less then 17.. so i think i should try the hardest possible to attain what i want..
i am Doing this for a greater reason.. for establishing a greater level of self respect in my own eyes.. for creating an example for myself that if i can overcome the worst of my addictions then i can achieve anything!!!
And i know deep inside that its just a matter of even more deciplain and perseverance...

 

#Daily check in
Day 2 completed
The day was very good
I got some minute urges but i was able to controle myself pretty easily and the day was soo busy that i didnt even got the time to checkin here
“The past cannot be changed but the future is yet in your power !!”
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