My 123 days of NOFap.

My 123 days of Nofap and how it ended
During my days, I had no contact with the PMO, despite countless attempts by friends and family to show me complaining, I avoided as much so that I could have all the benefits
Day 1-7: Non-existent effects, especially for those who almost
dead of the PMO, but it is clear that great successes require great sacrifices.
Day 7 - 30: I started to gain self-confidence, but inside I felt a certain hidden shyness.
Day 30 -60: My mind was clear, I had no more worries, the anxiety disappeared, I felt an internal force that asked me to get out of bed and do something useful. My body worried about being idle. During this period, my father asked me to help with the renovation of the house, for the first time I did not feel tired of the service. What I did once, eager to leave, this time I stayed until the end and a sense of perfectionism made me stay home until the night, needing my father to ask us out. All that matters is this, the discomfort was good for me, even when I was fasting, it didn't bring me any weakness. It is worth mentioning that during this period I was no longer horny with women, there was no need to relate, I felt that I had to do something important before going after a woman. My vision has improved significantly,
Day 60 -100.
I don't know where my libido went to, but I was still energized, but a little bored, even though I was on vacation and without performing any tasks in the day, at the end of the day, I lay in bed and slept like a rock. You may be thinking well, so you woke up Zen !? No, even though I was sleeping almost 10 am, a strange tiredness took over my body. I thought that what I did wrong will be a fixed line, weeks have passed and the libido has not returned. Trust, yes, I said what he wanted and thought, it didn't matter to the people around me, whether they liked it or not, before I was ashamed to speak in public. A brief story took place inside the university classroom, in a slide show with an audience full of zombie wankers, before I felt shy, what would they think of me? Fuck what they will think, group of children in life to judge me, that day I spoke calm and confident, without any fear, it is worth mentioning that the teacher praised my presentation and a different look came from her. Funny day.
Day 100 - 123: New year, yes, I promised that until the new year there would be at least 90 days of noFap, and I did. But, unlike the feeling of acting, I felt procastination. It is worth mentioning that, throughout this period, I did not practice sport, even if I walked daily I did not consider it sport, I would like to enter the gym, but I did not do it. During this phase, I met people with money, I felt that it did not happen with pure luck, noFap attracted me to these people, the best of all is that I was not afraid to look in the eyes of these people as equals, even though I knew I had. nothing compared to them it seemed that they liked my presence, I don't know an aura that exuded inside me, even though I was bored, I attracted these people.
Day 123 I failed, I simply failed, I got tired, I thought about starting again, continuing what was not good, I will not tell details because I simply failed and that's it. I already had a sequence of 60 days and two over 90. I remember that when I failed all three, I started again, a force inside me told me that I was stronger and that I was going further and further, different from the first sequence, I didn't want to masturbate or anything I knew about the damage it did to me. So you ask me, today on the day I post this post (day 123), why did you do that? I don't know, I feel a little disgusted with myself, I feel that I lost a tremendous energy accumulated inside me that was not transmuted correctly, but one thing I say Today, day 1, I will do everything I did during my series, without regrets . NoFap is a lifestyle that made me grow, counting the days is something for those who are just starting out and don't know the true mystery behind this practice. After almost more than a year of practice, I say that NoFap should not be seen as a movement that practices lifestyle, it should be done and ready, you think that in the past men were more men because NoFap without to know what they were doing or that there was a community behind it, they just had to work to survive. They didn't have time or facility to watch pornography and masturbate, they didn't and that was normal. Think with me of all the people who have done great things in life, from Jesus being at the top of their minds to a person who has conquered millions on their own, they know how to transmute that energy,
I wish you all good luck. And that they simply live, within the correct and true, so that we can enjoy the real benefits.

I'm sorry for my bad english