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MP1018 Journey to a Porn free life

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by MP1018, Jul 1, 2016.

  1. MP1018

    MP1018 Fapstronaut

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    Hey guys!

    Super excited to get involved with this community and I think Im finally ready to take on this nofap challenge. I decide a couple months ago that sex with my girlfriend started to go sour and I was flapping about getting nothing done. Anxiety reach an all time high and so did my porn use ( sometimes between 3 - 4 times a day). I have always been amazed (more like addicted to porn) since I was 12 - 13 and I never thought anything about it. Im 22 now and I am nearly on the verge of bombing out of University so I decided its time for a change. Though I have never had a problem with being intimate with women I want to feel and gain respect for them. I want to enjoy real intimacy and not obsess over the negative physical urge that my porn loving mind has craved. Since I decided to take on this new challenge I have failed many times, making it to 2 days then relapsing at the start. Soon after I got back on the horse and made 3 days no PMO then tragically relapsed when I thought it was ok just to have a peak. I refused to give up though with all my might. I know what i want to achieve and I will stop at nothing to get past these urges. I am now on my longest streak of 11 days!! Sure surprised me thats for sure. As ever day goes on I start to see that normal women are all so beautiful and my girlfriend even more so! The urges are still constantly making me want to give in but I know that its just my feelings/conditioning and not what I know to be true!

    keep ya posted,
    MP.
     
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  2. AndySky180

    AndySky180 Fapstronaut

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    Well done -- 11 days is awesome. I reckon we could all resonate with the lies we tell ourselves: "I'll just have a peek, that's all", "a couple of strokes won't hurt", "I'm much stronger now" and next thing we can't stop it and BAAAM, it's all over (and all over everything, lol). Stay positive and do your best to push thru the urges, get comfortable with being uncomfortable. The payoff is just awesome, and you and your gf will experience what life is really about at its highest. Yes, you can break through the crap. You want to. You will. All the very best -- and hearty welcome to Nofap.
     
  3. MP1018

    MP1018 Fapstronaut

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    Thanks man.

    I really appreciate the feedback and support. I know it takes guts and commitment, its kind of like trying to build a wall, a massive one! You look at the scale of the job and you think to yourself "no way! thats impossible", but if you commit to simply taking one brick and attempting to lay it down as perfectly as you can it will soon be built.
     
  4. AndySky180

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    That's a great image MP1018. It's day-by-day --- and yep, sometime's it's fucken hour-by-hour, minute-by-minute even!! It's good to keep a sense of humour handy as well. I decided that my cock tries to hypnotise me. It gets me into this state where all I can think about is jacking-off. It's hynoptic because it's sooooooo overwhelming, there's another part of my brain that says I DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS AT ALL. Know what I mean? I think the Reboot helps break the power of this hynoptic effect.

    Rather than fighting the urges head-on, a flanking maneovre will work better. Go out and do things you otherwise like doing when you feel the hypnotic spell creeping up on you again. Spend time with your girl, do all those small but important things. She will love you to bits for it. Go to the gym. Build yourself up. Get fitter. The better you feel about yourself, the more powerful you will be. The worse thing you can do is start thinking with your hard-on and letting the "urge" simply overwhelm you. Don't stay in that space!!!

    Hope the quest goes well for you mate. Take good care, and all the very best OK. Cheers.
     

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