More to Why I'm Here

Hey everyone, I am new to this and I already posted my introduction thread to explain why I'm here. Furthermore, I consider this time to be the worst and best time to commit to this all the way, and I'll go into more details. The reason why it's the worst time of my life is b/c my gf just broke up with me and is already in another relationship. All the time I wish she were still available because it would have been easy to get back with her to have regular sex. To be honest that is what I miss the most about her. I feel wrong thinking and typing that, but I need to be forthcoming about my situation so I can get the help I need. I'm leaving to return to my home country very soon, and will be back in February. That's another reason why it's the worst, but also the best time, for this decision. When I think about my gf, and how I don't have anyone to sleep with I get sad, lonely, and it causes me to get weak so I want to act out. A reason why this is the the best time is b/c it wouldn't be fair to start a relationship with someone new when I know I'll be gone for at least two full months right after the relationship starts. I'm wanting to get a gf really soon, but I need to do this 90 day commitment mainly for myself and a little for my future gf/wife. It's going to be difficult, yet I know it's what I need to do. I am looking down this road, and I know it's going to be the toughest road I've ever taken. However, I know the results will be well worth it. At least that's what I hear...