Misdiagnosed into circumcision depressed and suffering from pied please help

Have you tried therapy? I went through similar situations. PIED all my life. Did sex therapy for a few months and it got somewhat better but fell back into the habit and it returned. Also got a circumcision last year thinking it would help but same problems. After doing some intensive therapy I found childhood trauma and issues that led me down this dark road. Have been porn/orgasm free for 38 days now. Had some urges where I slipped and edged but I reminded myself why I am doing this. Better, happier life. Less depressed anxious and more confident. You can do this once you are truly motivated for a change.

 

Any type of therapist can help. Last therapist wasn’t a sex therapist but help me realize trauma that can cause sexual dysfunction later in life. Also meditation can help tremendously. Working out as much as possible especially if urges are high. Find all the tools that work for you!

 

Same we all want love from another but we gotta start with loving yourself first enough to quit doing the things causing the harm. The confidence will come back and the anxiety of not getting it up will fade away.

 

I think @Lifewarrior24 answered your question by saying "go and see a therapist" - you then answered with 'I keep chickening out'. I think here is the real blocker. I totally understand that insurance sometimes might not cover things, but therapy is likely your best route for not just understanding, but escaping depression.

You speak about fear of being humiliated, suffering trauma, shame and embarrassment, yet you remain stationary, too afraid to take any action. You have to understand that these feelings are messages from your body. Messages that are trying to tell you that something is inherently wrong. However the more you repress them, the worse the feelings of depression will get. Remember depression is a symptom that comes from the body, and not the mind.

If you truly want to become your 'best self' the best thing you can do right now is take action. If not for yourself, then your future girlfriend/wife. The longer you sit, wait and avoid talking to somebody, the further you move away from the life you are supposed to be living.

 

It seems as though you are more concerned with how other people perceive you, than how you feel about yourself. Why would going to therapy to understand how you feel be crazy? And even if it did seem crazy, why does it matter? Whether it matters to you is all that should be important - nothing else.

If you want to recover and be in in a position to start living life, get yourself to therapy. If you want to continue living in fear of your emotions, avoid therapy and continue as you are.

I went through this very same choice. Avoided therapy for years on end, while making excuses that I could not afford sessions, or that I could solve the issue by myself. My depression got so bad that I cut off my family, my friends, I started failing at work, I felt numb 24/7 and was consistently moody and irritable. Food lost its taste, video games and TV lost its zest. Nothing could reach me or move me.

When I finally bucked up the courage to go to therapy and explain what had been happening in my life, I burst into tears for the first time in years. Shame, embarrassment, trauma had lived rent free in my body for so long that I had forgotten who I was. I totally understand, going to therapy is a hard decision for anyone to make. But if you are going to decide not to go, at least find somebody that you can trust and reach out to them.

 

Well done, it’s a big step for sure but I promise you will thank yourself. You deserve not only to be happy but to be your best self.

Let us know how you get on?