Mid 30s guy giving this a shot!

Hi to all, just joined. What brought me here was a video that I came across on YouTube about the benefits of nofap. I was looking at it just out of curiosity really and had no interest in doing it until the topic of motivation came up. And that's what I've been lacking for a number of years now.

I had a discussion with my girlfriend recently about my lack of motivation and I simply did not have an answer as to why. That video was a light bulb moment for me. Unfortunately I came across hardcore pornography at the very young age of ten and I've viewed it since then. When the internet came along I watched it even more and with smart phones even more again.

Pornography and masturbation for me was more of a relaxation and a boredom thing but the past few years I've been questioning the time I've wasted doing it. When I could have read a book or watched a documentary.

Also there were times in the past where I had picked up a girl and said to myself I wish I hadn't wanked earlier, I'd be more into this. If I knew I was going be having sex I'd make sure I wouldn't masturbate.

So anyway I'm on my fourth day and I've been surprised by a few things. I'm finding it very simple mentally. And I don't really feel that horny. Before this I was constantly horny. Also the prospect of deleting my porn isn't making me anxious anymore. Physically I feel a little uncomfortable in the groin area, something similar to bloating. That's it really.

Thanks for reading!

 

Thanks for the reply and the support Septimus. I'm going to delete it all. I know what you mean I kind of felt sad about the thought of doing it when I was still in the midst of it but now I don't feel sad about it at all!

 

Thanks or taking the time to reply Roady. I'm determined to change my life for the better and I feel at peace finally admitting to my self that I was addicted. It's liberating really. And my mind feels clear now that its not clouded my all these chemicals that regular masturbation causes!