Man not sure if porn addiction ruined my brain or perhaps i might gay/bisexual which is frightening.

Imagining what another guy’s genitals look like compared to yours, and not thinking about it sexually does not make you gay or bi. You said yourself you could only kiss, cuddle with the girl you love. Don’t over think it. I’m sure many women see other women’s bodies and imagine them naked compared to their own. Doesn’t make them lesbians.

 

While you are most likely not gay, you definitely teach your mind with porn to imbibe in same sex attraction, which has nothing to do with love or romance, but everything to do with masculine insecurity/humiliation within yourself, seeing in another man attractive qualities you feel you may lack, your own inner woundedness from boyhood, whether through abuse, bullies, etc., and therefore may draw you to want to imbibe what you lack from other males in some way (via whatever SSA fantasy may serve the starkly symbolic metaphor, like when we dream). Porn will always strengthen the fantasy images within you, when all along you should have been dealing with such wounds in better, wholesome ways.

 

I felt the same way about my penis once (borderline gay thoughts included). I started working it out (helpful forum in my signature) and the resulting increase in size helped with the insecurity.

Recently I've just stopped caring lol. I'm still gonna continue making it bigger, but I no longer feel like I'm worthless for not being the most ginormous man in existence.

 

What have you exactly done?

 

Just manual stretching for now. I'll start heated hanging at some point in the future.

 

Any success ?

 

Yeah I've gained almost 3/4 of an inch. I should be able to gain at least another inch in the next few years.

I very much recommend it. It really helps with insecurity.

 

I see interesting
Any link or sth else
Asking for a friend

 

Lol there's no shame in bettering your body. Go to thunders.place or thebiohacker.com.

 

Hahah ok

 

Don't overthink things.
I believe you suffer from a low self-esteem.
Work on that and believe me you will be surprised how straight you are. ( i am not saying that non-straight men lack self-esteem, it is just your case is about self-esteem rather than anything else)

 

Honestly I wouldn’t read too much into it. PMO fries some of our brain and we always need novelty. Often gay is that novelty. Maybe you are a little bi maybe not. Id think that the romantic thing really determines sexuality anyway, rather than raw carnal desire predicated on a porn-fried brain