Hi All, Okay-the good news 31 Days Hardmode. I'm in habit building territory. Bad news-facing up to my behavior and making amends. Trigger Warning. I need constructive and supportive input. Please leave the hostile condemnation out of this-I'm already doing it enough to myself. I COULD REALLY USE ADVICE FROM PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN WHERE I WAS AT AND MADE GOOD. Or, knew someone who was like that and can lovingly recount on how they made good. Okay my issues aside from porn was cruising Adult Chatrooms and Sex Chatrooms. Everyone -says- they are at least 18. But it's been noted that not everyone necessarily is. I pursued people who indicated in some way that their eligibility may be in question. I felt like scum after, but didn't feel scummy enough to stop during or before. I feel ashamed. (Please see above line after trigger warning for guidelines for input). I need help making amends. Here's what I've done to mend my behavior. No Porn/No Chatrooms----->Learn more about healthy relationships and positive sexuality-be in more healthy relationships and healthy relating environments. Just don't go into chatrooms ever again. (No content from chatrooms were saved onto my computer) No masturbation. Reboot. Here's what I'm thinking about amends: Humanize porn/sex addiction-it's amazing to see how nsfw posters of opposite sex feel the same high/crash feelings that men feel and how it compromises their self worth and relationships. Not going into chats anymore but-people who are acting like that-are probably acting out deeper issues and need support. It probably will not be for me to provide that support-but there may be organizations out there who are bringing awareness to these issues that I could learn from and provide financial support to. Does anyone have any suggestions? Wild off the wall amends, might as well say them because they are terrifying me already- Chemical castration. Confessing to LE what I did-got to jail and completely screw up my life. Again-I know I S.C.R.E.W.E.D. up. I read all of the stuff in a panic I could find and freaked myself out. I could use advice from people who have been there and made good. Thank you everyone.