make myself tired again

After relapsed the day before, I think this time I will make myself tired all the time, forget about the silly theory, forget about sleep, I will prolong my work time and do everything I can to produce more work. I am still depressed about the mistake I made, the desire cost me a lot of money, if I don't learn to control it, it will affect me once I was painful, so I want to change my plan this time.