This is going to be a long one because I am explaining my psychology regarding nofap in detail. Before I start, let me make it clear that I totally support the NoFap cause and have been doing so for the past 1 year. I do understand that excessive masturbation and porn causes a plethora of unwanted side effects that we are all better without. And more than anything, I do want to get away from it. However, I have noticed that whenever I start a streak, I eventually lose the motivation to continue with NoFap. When I relapse, it is not only the desire to go back to fapping but also the weird question in my head to which I dont have an answer to - 'Why put so much effort in abstaining?' While I do start with a lot of motivation like 'It morphs my views about women', 'It causes me to get addicted to the dopamine surge', 'It is a waste of precious time', 'It lowers my chances to getting an actual girlfriend', sooner or later it feels like I am artificially convincing myself to keep going and these reasons dont really feel that strong anymore. And yes, some part of it can be my brain 'playing tricks on me' to get a dopamine surge but more often than not, I really feel like Nofap is not convincing enough. I live a highly stressful life already and fapping to porn is like a stress buster for me. Its pathetic but I am not running away from accepting this truth anymore. The reason my motivation fades is because I say to myself, 'I am already working so hard in life, why cant I watch porn and escape from reality for a little while'. I dont have a girlfriend and from the lifestyle I have chosen for myself, it is quite unlikely that I will have one in the near future. But over the years, I have learnt to accept that for myself. Its the price I am paying because I want to work hard and get ahead in my work. Also, it is important to mention that I am really not good with girls and over the years I have become conditioned to just avoid them and focus on my work to save myself the trouble. (If your advice is going to be to change this aspect of myself, its really not going to help because I am really focused on my career and as I said, I have learnt to be alone. Unless something happens on its own, I am not going around chasing girls for sure.) This part about not having a girlfriend was important because I feel that my desire to watch porn stems from loneliness and sexual frustration. If you have read this far you will understand that state that I am in now, which boils down to this : No girlfriend -> Desire to watch porn -> Trying to fight the urge -> Asking myself 'why go through nofap at all, fapping relives stress after all!' -> Giving in Not sure if this is something you can relate to. If you can, please give me some advice on how to move past this. Thanks for reading I respect all of you a lot for understanding your addiction and getting into the discipline of fighting it.