Looking for some advice here...

Hey guys, so I'm not new to nofap- Ive been struggling with PMO addiction for years and have been fighting it since about 2 and a half years ago. I was looking for some advice from you guys.. and I need it bad. 21 years old, college student- male.


I feel like somethings wrong with me.. I'm currently am on day 7 and in a relationship. I got into it after I had been unsure for some time but decided that being afraid was no longer an option. Sometimes we have to take risks.. Its important to note that in the past I've had a very unstable relationship history (probably related to porn), and that the relationships id have would be very short lived. Id have a wavering sense of whether or not I liked them.. Ive done a bad thing in the more recent one now- Ive about cheated. No- I HAVE cheated. We have been together a max of a week and a half to two weeks and Ive flirted, tried to get with, and talked to two other women. One of which was a fling at a social event that just did not work out. And another was someone who I am interested in sexually but also emotionally.. here's the catch.

This person I am interested in emotionally- we liked one another in the past.. but it did not work out due to circumstance different than my usual pattern (ie. me just being unsure about someone and going back and forth). There was a BIG misunderstanding about something that happened to her- and it created a tension that could not be healed right away. We decided to remain friends, and eventually grew distant romantically- but I would continue to chase her occasionally for years (there's a few girls I did that to.. usually exes that I referred to earlier.. even though I would break up with them) Now.. she is no longer with someone who abused her for years, though still loves him and it is just a strange situation for her. She knows I still like her and would try a date but does not want to hurt me. Regardless though, I am WITH someone else. And I just.. part of me wonders if I am borderline- but after talking with therapists and my psychiatrist we determined not. What is wrong with me then? Why cant I keep a stable relationship? Should I pursue things with the old flame or continue with this new girl Ive already cheated on (emotionally) by talking about dating the other girl?

Sorry if this is confusing.. I confuse myself..


Please help me.