19 M Hi everyone. I wanted to come on here, and briefly share my experience with addiction, because frankly, sometimes I feel like there’s no hope for me. I’ve been fapping for as long as I can remember. The exact age I’d say is 4. Preschool years. I would lay on my stomach, put a blanket or something soft in my hands, and rub against it. Even back then, the number of times a day I did it was a problem. Many times a day. My parents used to yell at me, and tell me it was bad, but I was young and had no real idea what I was doing. This habit continued, and when I was 13, I started watching pornography. Still using the same technique of laying on my stomach and rubbing against a blanket. At this point, I was probably fapping anywhere from 1 - 8 times a day. At 17 I had my first sexual experience with a girl. She gave me oral, and I only felt a light tingling sensation, but never even got anywhere near O. Currently, I am 19. I have a physical relationship with a girl I’ve been dating for 11 months, but i’ve never had an O with her, and the only way I can finish, is by laying on my stomach, and using the same technique I’ve always used. I used to think sex was the answer to my problem of not being able to O, but i lost my virginity about a week ago, and I felt even less than oral. I’ve finlly decided to cut out PMO, and after only a few days, I feel terrible. In my short life I’ve been addicted to cigs, alchohol, and even pain pills. But this, is a whole other level. I wake up eveey morning to an intense pain in my balls. My head trobs throughout the day, and the temptation is hell like. I feel cheated by life. I just want to have a healthy sex life, but I’m tortured by something that started when I was to young to do anything about. But I’ve finally decided it’s time to change, and I’m determined to Will I ever regain sensitivity? Will the aching and headaches go away? Thanks.
Well, it's not like I (or anyone) knows for sure. But in short, the answers to your questions are: 1) Yes. If you give up PMO, especially the rubbing technique which gives you quite specific and intense friction/sensation, your sensitivity will go back up over time and your brain will be able to associate other sensations with pleasure and orgasm. It's a matter of persisting long enough. If you're wired to cumming this way since you were a kid, you might need to really persist to achieve a real change. (At least the full ninety day reboot.) 2) That, I don't know. I'm older and my body took suprisingly well to the reboot. It's more my mind that struggles/feels tempted at times. But from what I read around here (and I read a lot, partly to fill up time I might otherwise be tempted to fill with PMO) physical symptoms of not cumming when your body was used to cumming all the time do come and go. It will probably pass. In your case it might be worth doing a PM challenge and try and keep having sex with your GF. Now that your balls are full, you're not depleted etc. you might be surprised at how sex feels already (and maybe able to cum if you fuck hard enough, long enough, possibly). The key IMHO is to stop the rubbing thing, completely and without exception.
Yes there is hope, Life can truly change. It wont change by itself, you have to put in the work & 'bombard' your mind with inspiration. I was a hopeless case also, addicted to many things. Im still in the process of recovery, but im doing a lot better already than a year ago. Try to harmonise your life, learn as many things that you can to help you making life better. I started writing with myself as well, helped me a lot. There is also some great nofap youtubers out there, who inspired me a lot. All the best buddy
