Hy everybody... Today, after almost 29 days of no porn videos and pictures i've failled and watched some. Since yesterday, after sex with my girlfirend, I had some really high urges about porn and sex in generally.This morning also and during the night the same. Today I've watched some pictures and videos of transwomen and soon after I ended up in a video.All the time I was conscious that I WAS DOING HARM TO MYSELF but this wasn't enough to make me stop. I was edging and didn't wanted to reach orgasm ( so in that way I wouldn't feel ashame after) but in the end I continued until finished. Now I feel ashamed and a bit strange...is like the beast is weaking up and wants some more. I have a small thought that since i've failled I must take as must as I can of this porn buffet. Now I will start again, over and over. New counter and more concentration.Sooner or later i must win against this addiction.
you walked 29 steps and gone a few steps back, your still in a way better place than 30 days ago, just continue on the nofap way. Your dopamine pathways are still minimal. recovery isnt a straight line, sure your streak has gone but you are no way back at the beginning.
