Journal to overcome!

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Rob28, Jan 9, 2014.

  1. Rob28

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    Hello everyone! I'm 16 y/o male and I found this amazing website and I thought it could help me out. I discovered masturbating when I was 9 but I didn't do it too much, it did it often, not too much tho. But as I grew I did more and more and now I do it at least once a day. I'm trying to quit but it takes 2-3 days only. I don't know if I'm an addict but I think I am, maybe I have a hard time realizing that. I feel always guilt and anxiety after doing it. So from now, with the help of you guys I will try to do my best. Any tips and information will help me a LOT! Thanks !
     
  2. bc13329

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    Hey man keep it up the next few days will be the hardest. Live your life and stay busy. I've only made it to 7 days last week but the hardest part is realizing you are addicted. At least it was for me. Good luck.
     
  3. Rob28

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    Hey man. Yeah I will try, been there before when I tried to struggle it out. Yeah it kinda is but we gotta beat it! Good luck to you too bro!
     
  4. Rob28

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    Hello fapstronauts, I ALMOST relapsed, but somehow I didn't do it. With the help of bc13329 about saying that the next few will be the hardest ones gave me motivation to beat it. I found hope that, If I now beat the next coming days, it'll grow easier for me to not relapse easily. I have a girlfriend too but we're not having any sexual intercourse and we have a distant relationship. So two things came to my mind when I struggled. I hope to make more progress and I will write it down here so it calms me down.

    Btw the reason why I almost relapsed was because I got trigger'd by ads on the internet, so my tip for you guys is do not spend a lot of time on the internet. And get Adblocker, it's quite good for blocking the ads.
     
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  5. GottaStop3412

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    That's cool you found a filter in NoFap, where is it located?
     
  6. Rob28

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    Hey man, well to be clear, I explored then I got to NoFap in reddit if I remember correctly. But, I have the website if you want to download it. It's easy and it works smooth, and you can change the settings and stuff. What to block and what not. And you can get it on your iPhone but I haven't done that yet. :)

    Link to the filter: http://www1.k9webprotection.com/
     
  7. walid

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    Hi Rob I totally understand what you are feeling, because whenever i relapsed i feel the same.
    good luck with a new start, i hope we all make it to this long journey.
     
  8. Rob28

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    Yeah, good luck to you too bro.
     
  9. William

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    Hi Rob, quit is quit. Porn is hard to give up. We love the dopamine button it represents. Watch porn, dopamine released, we like that. Best drug in the world and ironically it resides right in our own brain. We release it to sexual thoughts. Nice to be quoted by the way. Here's my post about how I quit porn and why. Feel free to read and comment. Reading posts and replying are part of my recovery, so thanks for posting.

    http://www.nofap.org/forum/showthread.php?2402-Get-educated-get-tools-and-learn-to-love-withdrawals

    Good luck in your journey.
     
  10. Rob28

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    Awesome! it's you. Yeah it is, I didn't know this at all but now I do, the chemicals and stuff and how it effect you. I will read it and comment soon. Thank you for the comment, appreciate it! Good luck to you too bro!
     
  11. GottaStop3412

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    Hey man, don't look at it like 'there are those who quit, and there are those who are trying.' That's putting too much pressure on yourself. The next time you relapse you'll only be beating yourself up even more, loosing more self-esteem.

    Take it from a guy who is physically, mentally, psychologically, neurologically, 100% totally addicted to PMO: You will always be trying to quit. Always. If you're as hung up on porn as most of the other guys in here, that shit is wired into your brain by now. When you're 60 years old and an old trigger pops up -- guess what, you're still going to recognize it.

    So don't be ashamed to be one of
    Just practice being totally self aware. Totally alert to that exact moment when your mind flicks over to that pathway that says "it's okay to go PMO now". Recognize that it almost happened, try to avoid judging whether it was good or bad, and let it go.

    You're gonna reset your counter again sometime in the future, I guarantee it. But get this -- you CAN make it to 15 days. That's your goal. you can reach it. I know you can.

    - GS
     
  12. Rob28

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    Hey man, thanks for posting, it means a lot. Thanks for putting it in that perspective, well you're right. The brain can be a dangerous thing. I'm always trying to make the urges disappear but as this is my day 2 It went okay, the bed didn't make me wanna do it and at school it was kind of good so hopefully nothing today will happen. AND! GS I will make it till the 15th day, I'll even message you. Hope it goes good for you too, and you'll finish the goal too, I know it too.
     
  13. Rob28

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    Day 1 - After relapsing

    Hello fapstrounats! I deleted some posts and cleaned it up. Summary of my days in NoFap community:
    I did really good in 4 days, I relapsed, felt shit as always, one day went, relapsed, one day went, relapsed. And now here I am. It's just that all my urges come back up in the bed, where I can literally do anything.
    So about 24hrs from now, I relapsed and I went to school, I had some minor issues like boners and such but it went away quickly. And here I am, a tip to you guys. As hard as it seems, never ever ever give up, It's not fucking worth it. I've been telling to myself that for years but I always end up doing it and It ended with me feeling guilt and other stuff. So GUYS! You CAN do this shit. You have to if you really WANT to. You have to find that something that motivates you, wether it's for you and doing it for you. OR it's maybe for YOU and your girlfriend or friend or something else. My motivation for beating this is for my girlfriend and me for the most. So fapstrounats, you can do this.

    Edit: Big thanks to everyone here, it helps me overcome it. I'd be worse if it weren't for you guys. Cheers!
     
  14. Rob28

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    A quick post here guys. So it was kind of 1 day and 4 hours ago I relapsed and today I got strong urges to fap. I got triggered and I wanted to fap. Just the feeling of thinking of fapping made me more horny. It was a war on my mind, the good vs the evil. I wanted to stop and tried but some part of me just wanted me to fap.
    Despite the urges I managed to control it and not masturbate. But the other challenge remains, the bed. As told before, I ALWAYS have a trouble not fapping in bed. I mean, I kinda get triggered watch some photos and go to the bathroom. It's always there so I'm hoping not to fap. Wish me good luck. I gotta beat 30 days. And I will.
     
  15. William

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    Good luck. Beware the chaser effect. You may want to binge after you relapse. I have experienced this before I quit. Sucks. Did I mention is SUCKS.

    http://yourbrainonporn.com/what-chaser

    Good luck on your journey.
     
  16. Eriaku

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    you can do this rob, youre the man :D
    if you need help just tell what is the point that you can't fight and i hope we can help you with tips
     
  17. Rob28

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    Wow, thank you for the posts guys! William, I'll check it out. Thanks for the article and Eriaku man, I can but sometimes I'm weak but so far so good. 2 days and 8hrs so it's good. I lifted today so that's something good. :D Btw, any tips would be helpful and stuff. Thx a lot.
     
  18. Rob28

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    Hey guys, right now. I have not PMO'd since 6 days and 7 hours. It feels like hell and I feel the urge to fap. Like, there's something empty in my heart or some shit. I just wanna fap so it goes away.I don't know but it may be the dopamine trying to make me doing it.. but yeah. I just wanna do it but I have not. Shit..
    I don't know if i'm really going to survive this night. But 6 days and 7 hours is my new record so far..
     
  19. Rob28

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    Guess what. I relapsed. Shit.