Join me for 90

Its so hard when those we love make decisions that are destructive to those around them and to themselves. Believe me i know what it is like, they not only did it against my advice, they yelled at me for giving them advice and when everything went horribly wrong they said i was right but still the cycle repeated itself over and over again.
My faith is my rock which gives me strength. I can tell you i probably wouldn't be alive without it. This probably isnt what you want to hear but it is the best advice i can give and that is pray. And i can do that for you.

 

Im struggling a bit. I need to stay strong.

 

Unfortunatly i failed completly. No question about it this was a full relapse. I think it was because of those stupid no nut november youtube videos with the thumbnails. I was over confident in myself and didnt treat them with the cation that i really should have. Im going to start again despite me wanting to wait a little bit before starting again because i know if i give in more it will only get worse.

 

one day has passed again, the first day is so hard as im constantly thinking i've already failed may as well continue. But i pushed through it. The chaser effect is real.

 

Thank you, i apreciate it. I need to remember i need to fight just as much now as i did in the past and cannot accept those things that i know make me fall.

Thank you for that, it means a lot to me. I will.

 

Man i failed again, everything is falling apart. I need to focus down and push forwards. I need to give myself back my sense of pressure. I know the temptation that caused me to fail and i got rid of that thankfully but it does show im still weak. I am going to make it back to 30 days this year.