Jerk free June - 30 day challenge

Let's do this. I pledge to be free of porn, porn subs and masturbation for the whole of the month of June 2022. 30 days 'sober', starting today.

I am also taking the opportunity to focus on my diet and exercise routines, to develop good habits to replace the bad ones. For me, PMO tends to go hand in hand with binge eating, lack of energy for exercise and lack of sleep.

So i will respond to urges accordingly. I will drink water and exercise. Or go outside and find company. Or sleep and i'll check in here every couple of days.

 

Welcome aboard, and good luck.

Day 3, stil feeling exhausted but no issues so far. Gained a pound too for some reason, although i am restricting calories. Oh well.

 

64 days is an amazing achievement btw! Really inspiring. Well done and keep it up.

Checking in day 4.

 

Day 5.

Difficult day with my toddler. Stoppy and tired and hungry and uncooperative. And my toddler wasnt much better (ha!)

Truth is he prefers his mum, but i am his main carer, which is hard to deal with.

 

Checking in.

Mad urges this morning, stupid addict brain telling me tales. Hey 6 days is great, why not just PMO once a week that is fine, nice and moderate, it's only once etc. Etc. But it passed. The urges always pass. Whether you give into it or not.

The sun is shining so im getting out on my bike for a bit. Some teaching later and pizza night (my diet has cheat days, nofap does not!!)

 

A week down! This is where it starts getting difficult some observations:

Still pretty low energy. Been keeping up a simple hiit regime 5 days a week, but nothing else exercise wise. Ive been eating a little better, esp with regards to binge eating late at night. I have lost 2 lbs.
Urges, only yesterday was worth mentioning. Luckily it only lasted an hour or so. Maybe less. Today i feel fine, just neutral. And wanting to look after myself, eat well, exercise, read and get rest. Maybe some of the self hatred is starting to fade.

 

8/30. Day off so i went into town, haircut and a bit of shopping. New pair of jeans for me and a toy for the kid. Nice to be out and about by myself for a change.

 

Day 9/30. Definitely experiencing some changes now. Not all of them good - seems like women are noticing me in the street, or i notice them noticing me. Or maybe it's my addict brain playing tricks on me, who knows.

Not quite urges but a lot of chatter from my addict brain today. Suspect this is going to get a whole lot worse before it gets better.