It's Day 40.

Well guys actually day number doesn't mean much for me as the main criteria to measure our change is to see how different person we became ? , Did we change our way of thinking or still think the same way ? , Do we make the same mistakes ? , Are we having a different taste of life than before ? , Do we used alternatives to porn ? or we are just waiting for days to pass so we became free ? .. this is really what matters .

My journal today gonna be religious oriented as an Orthodox Christian :

-Well this words won't gonna make non believers to god happy but anyway what i wanted to say is 'God is magic' ! , yeah he is Love , Peace , Joy , Mercy , kindness , righteousness . He can change us to better through his spirit that he gave us that makes us stay connected to him through praying .

-Did you ask yourself onetime How a sinner Like 'Augustine' can change to be Saint Augustine? is it his will power? , his plans ? , his strategies ? , his determined approach ? , He was doing adultery , fighting god , drink alcohol and lots of bad stuff and addictions . But he changed !!! and he became God's new creature ! Do you know the answer ?
-It was his mother's Prayers for 20 years !! it was god voice inside his spirit.

-Did you ask yourself before how 'Paul the Apostle' changed to be Saint Paul ? , it was god's voice inside him that changed him to became one of the best Bible messenger .

-Did you ask yourself before how "Egyptian Mary" became 'Saint Egyptian Mary' ? the same reason it's god's voice and spirit that are fighting against devil inside us.

-Did you ask yourself before how 'Christians Monks' left the world and decided not to marry , not have luxury life , and live in a small silo to worship Lord Jesus ? , it was God's spirit that moved them to live this life ,it was God's grace that changed them and let them Prefer God almighty than that trivial life we live everyday.

*The conclusion i want to come is "Praying and Experiencing God's grace" is a very good solution to deal with our addiction.

-BUT that doesn't mean that we don't have to use our brains also to make a plan for our recovery and to be more determined and find out the problems that porn can do to harm our brains , and to stay connected with each other as community , and to help each other for addiction overcoming .

-I am personally have a plan to fight porn , and many of listed 'Why statements' and strategies , seeking others help also and experiences , and to increase my knowledge of porn addiction cycle , but Jesus is on my first rank of this plan.

-Here is my 7 steps Strategy : 1-Have a relation with god , 2- Write down why i want to stop 'Why statements' , 3- Do a plan to fill my day with fruitful work , 4-Don't focus on how bad is my past but instead focus on how to change my present life , 5-Use porn protection so it can't be only one click that stops me from porn . 6-Read motivational stories and learn from others experiences . 7-Helping others to stop addiction and support them .

-Last thing if you are non believer , don't worry god won't stop you from being free or hit you with a thunder from sky to understand that he is and no one else because God is fair and you will reap what you sow for sure .

 

Well, yeah i just wanted to focus on those points also one of my biggest change is having a relation with god but as for physical changes:

-My motivation now is high , i am doing daily tasks and can push myself to do hard work and to learn new stuff everyday like programming , singing , reading , playing guitar.
-I respect my self than before as i am not doing nasty stuff that i was ashamed of like before so an increase of my self-esteem.
-As a result of higher self-esteem my confidence is boosted too.
-Now i can manage my time and don't procrastinate hard jobs.
-I started to feel again how girls are beautiful and my objectifying to girls is less than before .

Those are the changes that i noticed till now.