It’s not what I really want

Porn showed me sex, showed me 2 people doing something I was excited by. I didn’t even understand and really don’t to this day. I see such a beautiful world around me, yet it’s a sickness inside these people.

sex bothers me I guess, whenever I think of it I feel dirty. It’s not really what I want in this life. Seeing that shit bothers me so I don’t even care to watch anymore. Such awfulness in people, making a mess of the beauty in life I see. It doesn’t even matter, I’m here and in my place.

I just don’t know what happened to life, why some of you just decide to spit on everything beautiful.