issues with being cognisant in swing of addiction

i dont know if its a dopamine issue and a combination of bad lifestyle habits like chronic sleep issues causing poor decision making.

But you ever go through thd cycle that is pmo and you binge , your sleep is effected and ultimately you feel like crap.

i find those binges get worse and effect cognitive decision making . like everything feels off . sense of time is shot after pmo binge and there is a sense of disassociation.

Then it creeps back in the mental imagery of the porn you had been watching for 3 hours. being an idiot and spending money on cam sites.not something i usually do and wont be making a habit of it.

ultimately i have to question my mental state when binge watching porn . and the next 24 hours its almost as if porn just wipes out that critical thinking and impulse control .

almost like your drunk and bad decisions.

except its porn it lowers inhibitors and are then cognitively impaired after pmo. then everything goes back to boring . difficult cycle