Is this porn or its just something else ?

We often use pmo to self medicate our problems, until we feel like we have to pmo for no reason. Then it aggravates our problems and causes us to fall further into mental illness. So we go looking for some easy medication - oh porn would work!
Once you cut porn out of your life, you will see weather everything is good or not. By the sounds of it it's not, so get ready to take some actions. A therapist maybe able to help.

 

I second what @Rubidium said.

On nofap I see two different schools of thought on PMO addiction. School 1: PMO addiction is especially nefarious and contains its own unique and powerful negative side effects that you don't see with other addictions. School 2: PMO addiction is not too different than other addictions other than it is very easy to become addicted to PMO, and thus, it is your desire to go to your addiction instead of live a healthy life.

I guess both schools of thought have their merits, but, I personally lean more towards the second school of thought. You might not feel that PMOing is that bad, but, if you turn to PMOing when you start feeling unhappy or when everything is 'fucked up', then, you are allowing the 'fucked up' state to live on. You might be wondering, how am I allowing this to happen by PMOing? Because you are choosing to defer dealing with the reasons for your 'fucked up' situation. You defer dealing with the situation every time you PMO to feel pleasure instead of pain. Part of 'dealing' with your problems is allowing yourself to feel the pain of the 'fucked up' situation. That pain ideally will cause you to act and do something to un-fuck the situation.

 

I don't believe you are qualified to diagnose yourself in this way. How do you know you don't feel emotions like love, passion, motivation and disgust, when you yourself say you've never had a relationship, overweight and struggling with OCD's.

Of course you're going to say that, look I'm single like yourself, never had a relationship, struggling with the same OCD as you and thinking, 'boy oh boy this is some shithole to be in.' I don't feel love, how can I, I've never been loved, passion, what's that without love, disgust - your OCD's warp this so you are continuously confused.

Best thing to do, is start planning. How are you going to GET OUTTA this shithole? How? Can you?

It is the only way. The other option is too terrible to think about.

 

Yup, I see what you mean.
When I first got here, I thought PMO addiction was the worst problem in my life, and once I got that out I'd be great.
But while learning to live a life without porn, I stumble upon all sorts of other problems.
An addiction blurs your sight, and learning to deal with the addiction will make you realise other places to improve in life too.