is this considered relapse? i'm about to lose my mind

Like kpop dance, some choreo will be hand slide down the breats abit or ass etc... does it count as sexual activities?

 

It's not like i have to go back and kept replaying the hand sliding down b**b part and ass, but it was apart of the dances, like i don't want to watch or intentionally wanted to see it. I have to like skipped over that choreo right away? everytime i wanted to see dance again?

 

It never actually urge me to masturbate or porn, like i already cleaned from PMO, after couple years of nofap, however i still suffering these triggered. It once normalize to me, cause i think it just a dance, it doesn't have rate 18 or anything, it kpop dance or western dance etc...

 

went back to my old addiction, PMO of course. My final destination of nofap is to get a girlfriend then doesn't mean i go back to pmo, it just that I don't have to scared about going back to those old habits.

 

Like now it turned into fear... I could no longer watch my favorite girl group etc... it triggered but it never urge me to masturbate or watch porn

 

Sadly i have GAD which is really similar to OCD, it's just that once normalize stuffs become a fear is driving me crazy... Even watching comedy like getting hit in the nut or ass, michael jackson dance grabbing their nut etc... everything that related to sexual parts, my brain would instantly question my own wisdom whether those count as relapse... Certain times i just wanna give up on nofap, and go back to the old addiction, so it won't bother me anymore...

 

yea GAD really similars to OCD, the different is how i deal with constant worrisome and overwhelmed by certain thought or action etc... most are temporary, i went to therapy talk about OCD as well, she said GAD also did cause rumination thoughts. However after all what i just mentioned above those aren't in porn categories but it is triggered. Would u count those as relapse?

 

No like i said, i have no urge to pmo instead it gave me a bad anxiety of scared to relapse

 

Well i should follow this, i also have my favorite anime shows like attack on titan, the Witcher netflix and peaky blinders... I unable to watch all of those due to nudity at the first episode lol...

 

Not really lol, and i never let dumb urge to take over me. It's just that even though i set specific rules, i still felt something else is wrong like all the soft things that considered slip or relapse which is not even porn... It just something that can happened unexpected... It's hard to explain... If i have to give an example like a girl wearing tight pant gym working out them big booty looking hot even though it's not porn, but other would considered it a relapse or slipped up etc...