Today is the 31 day. Today i waked up and took off pants to sleep without it after a while I picked up my phone and searched for some sexy games and i watched some explicit game picture,so i found my penis so wet although there was no erection and i rubbed my self about 3 or 4 times but i stopped because I don't want to relapse. So i stopped and closed everything and wore my pants again. So is this a relapse ? And is resisting myself a good sign for self control or what i did isn't self-control at all ? I don't intend to take off my pants again while I'm laying on my bed.
You can relapse without taking off your pants. What's most damaging is not the masturbation or orgasms, it's the PORN. If you seek out porn on your own will, you already flood your brain with dopamine and strengthen addicted brain pathways. I am sorry, but by watching porn and downloading sexy games, 90% of the relapse damage has already been done BEFORE you took off your pants. https://nofap.com/faq/what-is-a-porn-addiction-relapse/ Seems you not only tick one but at least 3 boxes. But it's ok, don't let your relapse discourage you. You can do better next time and will learn from your mistake! No road to recovery is without bumps.
Even without looking at explicit porn ? Because I changed my place because after that i found my self search for a sexy girls ,so i throw my phone away and i went to take a shower.
In my opinion any active search of pornographic material and purposeful arousal to it is a relapse. Don't worry though, not all progress is lost. Use the discipline from this streak to keep going and help you to go even further. Don't binge just because you had a little slip up, that's why I don't want you to think of it as a relapse. Just start over your day counter but realize that you are getting better at NoFap day by day of abstinence.
Yes. I used porn as a very broad term. But this applies to EVERYTHING that arouses YOU and gives you that dopamine kick and makes you want to stroke your sausage. But just like Different Built has said: Don't make the mistake of going into a binge relapse now. Because not every relapse does the same damage. For now, just reset your counter and move on. You haven't lost ALL progress. If you fall into a binge relapse now, however, you might indeed destroy everything you worked for during the last 30 days. Also this is old nofap wisdom. But if you are in a situation where you have to ask "Is it a relapse?" the answer is "yes" 99.9999999% of the time.
You intentionally took of your pants, looked at a porn equivalent on purpose on purpose for some time, then touched your deck. Yes, that's a relapse and a chance to learn about boundaries and bottom lines. Charge your phone in a different room, block the sexy games to remove the loophole.
You were right guys, I couldn't resist and watched some sexy videos on youtube and ejaculated. And all i think about now besides how terrible myself. I want more but I'm ready to feel this pain of sinful urge. because I will never relapse again and i won't binge as usual. If i forced myself to stand this pain now will i be able to abstain for the next 90 days ? To be honest with you I started really to lose faith in myself and actually I'm suffering a sever depression more than month ago. And today I was happy because of the 30 days and now I ruined everything
If you stop ALL consumption of sexually arousing content right now, you will succeed. Now is the really important stage where you have to get back to nofap right away. Set up some content blockers. Set a hardcore rule to yourself: "If I seek out sexually arousing content myself (not as an accident) it is a relapse". But you seem to have the right mindset about it now. You got this, champ!
