PMO was a way to cope with loneliness for me. I cutted it off and other practices that were giving me dopamine rush, like sexting that was my problem during first ten days of reboot. It resulted in more melancholy and sadness. I am happy that I am making progress with reboot and I stopped doing risque things that might led to relapse. I don't want to go back to the past. However it is harder to deal with loneliness, I relatively recently overcomed depression and I am afraid it might return. Dating isn't really option for me for next year or maybe even two years. I need to lose weight and due to medical reasons it takes time, but I am making steady progress. However it is seriously discouraging because almost nobody notices and nobody will for some time in the future because at the beginning there are no significant changes in appearence. I want to better myself, but this is hard. Also I am a stress eater and cutting snacks makes it even harder. I know that I made progress, especially starting a promising reboot was a big step forward but a significant change in my life is so far ahead of me that it seems impossible to reach. I don't want to whine, yer I can't just silence my feeling of sadness. I have good family relations, good friends, I am not socially isolated. I have moments when I am occupied and I just don't have time to think about my loneliness. But from time to time it finds me anyway. I'll keep going and I am motivated to leave my past behind, but motivation can't heal my sadness.