is it just me ?

is it just me or loneliness does hit different while on semen retention. like what i feel is i had been chasing women online back when i was wanking a lot and i was contempt. but right now there is a void. a sexual hunger to satisfy myself which i recognize developing in myself.
it's like i feel there is a need for someone-the primary cause why i started fapping and porn was to overcome loneliness. i am supposed to study for an examination and this bit makes it harder i don't have any support or study-buddy. never did.

recently i had been talking to a few ladies and it turned sour. i wanted a relationship and they wanted a sexual fling that's all.
does everyone who enters into SR feels this hollow at first?? is it actually normal??
i need some guidance.