Hey brothers. I'm doing NoFap/not using porn because I've been addicted to porn practically since I've discovered it at somewhere around the age of 10. I have a highly addiction-prone mindset and have managed to kick other bad habits like weed, nicotine, and videogames. I want to kick porn and masturbation because my porn habits have gotten so far from vanilla. I feel like watching porn taints my soul and people can detect that I'm a pervert. Plus, it makes it harder to stay aroused when having sex with my girlfriend. Often I'd rather go into the bathroom and masturbate to porn instead of having sex with my girlfriend. It was easier, and the girls would be hotter/more slutty/more taboo/etc. Also, after fapping I get really lethargic. I can see that I'm addicted to PM and that I need to kick this habit asap or else I may never quit. We live in a small 1 bedroom apartment together and I've been attempting NoFap/No Porn seriously for the last month or so (without telling her). On one hand, my No PM streaks have helped me gain confidence, but they have also made me so irritable. I wish I could stop being irritable but I just keep having mean thoughts towards her. When I get stressed I think of PMOing but I can't so I get irritable towards her without any logical reason (from her POV). The sad thing is she's a great girl, very loving and affectionate, great body, and actually wants to have sex with me regularly. The way she tries to initiate sex is so awkward though that I'd rather watch porn. With porn I can finish everything in a few minutes and it's all about me instead of having to worry about pleasuring her which feels like work sometimes. I guess I'm ranting. I have been able to achieve several streaks between 4-8 days. I broke my M streak (4 days) last night when my GF went to her parent's for the night. I didn't watch porn though so I feel at least a little good.
