Introduction and Reflection

Been on NoFap before. Lasted for about 30 days before relapse. Stopped paying attention to NoFap for about 4 months.

Now I am back, with a new arsenal of tools and understanding.

This is what I have learned:
First, a lot of us make a big deal out of this... Pleasuring ourselves... But I see that it is this kind of extreme outlook which kills us. You are not killing a person when you masturbate. You are not succumbing to an evil corporation. You are not committing some irreversible action which will set your path down one of pain, torment, and agony. Only if you perceive it that way. It starts with what you think and observe as real.

If I can change my view and perception about porn into one that is modest, realistic, and knowledgeable... Then I can conquer it.

To blindly go on with intense passion about overcoming a monumental monster, is to set myself up for failure. A human being can only maintain passion for so long, before exhaustion sets in. Passion is like exercise... It builds and builds, until you get tired... Then the habits (auto-pilot activities) we have during our "exhaustion" phase create the foundation for our lives.

If I can focus my passion on creating better habits, then when my passion is depleted... My habits will kick in (good or bad).

I've been down this NoFap road before, but I drank the passionate Kool-Aid that most of these youngsters have. That was a bad choice.

The true victory will lie in discovering good habits, discovering my reasons to live, and finding my true self. Not by looking at a number of days I can accumulate until everything comes crashing down.

Let's see what I can accomplish during the time I abstain, instead of what I can't do.

I don't wish to tell anyone their point of view is worse than mine. I don't want anyone to think that their belief is pointless. This is my view on the matter. This is me accepting what I did in the past, and not letting it ruin me.

After all, porn addiction is just a story our brain tells us to get a chemical rush. If we can separate ourselves from the story, we can tell ourselves that we are not controlled by it.

 

Thanks for that!