Internet Addiction (rant)

I swear to God I've wasted several years of my life on the internet. This started all the way back with AOL. That's how long this has been going on. From there it moved to Forums (my current obsession), News, Games, Reddit, 4chan, IRC... Years of my life, gone. I haven't gained a fucking thing from the internet. Not a fucking thing. I don't know what to do anymore. It's made me fat and lazy. It certainly had a detrimental effect on my mental health. And I can't. fucking. stop. Why am I doing this to myself? I get nothing out of this. It's killing me. I have to stop. What should I do?

 

Seriously, I think the internet is stalking me. It used to be somewhat of a technical feat to connect to the internet. Now, it's everywhere. It's in my phone, it's in my car, it's in my books (Kindle), it's in the billboards I drive by everyday. It's become like a humongous, omnipresent, soul sucking vampire destroying everything I hold dear. It's like Skynet meets The Matrix meets HAL 9000 meets every other horrible sci-fi nightmare. The dystopian future is now.

 

Right, I'm not gonna look back on my life on my deathbed and say "gee, I wish I had spent more time online." People at my funeral aren't going to be saying "He really burned that sonuvabitch president in his comments on the news." It's all meaningless. It's all a waste of time. Even this post is a waste of time. Am I having any impact on the world or my life whatsoever by posting on these stupid forums? No. Yet, I can't break free. I've gone periods of time without the internet but I always come back. It's just so fucking convenient, so cheap, at times even entertaining. But, fuck, most of the time it's just a total waste of time. I use the internet so much it's a form of self-harm and I can't stop.

 

Guys, I asked myself what it is that makes the internet so addicting to me. I think what it is is I like to read and write and share what I've written. I never got into YouTube or social media because I prefer text. So, I was thinking, how can I satisfy that urge to read, write, and share without going online? I guess what I'm gonna do is start reading and writing books. I was thinking I could write a book about what it's like to have schizoaffective disorder. A lot of people find that sort of thing fascinating: "Inside the Mind of a Psycho." Hell yeah. Still pondering it but I wanted to share.

 

Elon Musk is a glorified drug addict known for manipulating the stock market and getting away with it. I was just reading in the Wall Street Journal that he takes ketamine. Take what he says with a grain of salt.

I dunno. I used to be a major AI doomer then I saw how limited it was and realized it's basically a parlor trick.