I'mma use my energy

I have listened to elliot hulse(unfortunately a dead youtube channel) for about two or three days now.

He gave a way to use your energy better.

The entire thing revolves around male energy that should be expressed.

I have paid a little attention to what I do when I get aroused, when I masturbate, what I do as a response to ejaculation.

to arousal I respond with avoidance. I respond by going well shit better get the hell away from this.

Guilt when I responded how I usually do -fapping-.

By fapping my head shuts off and I enjoy the hell out of it.

Ejaculation I feel my energy blurting out I feel bad because I gave my energy to the environment.

I'm taking a direct statement from elliot hulse. I wanna start breathing into my balls.

The energy, that makes me wanna go and do the hell out of something, gets trapped and wants to get the hell out.

I made a channel that goes right from my sacral area and streams straight out of my dick.

I do not want to spurt out energy. but I'm a dude, that's my role.

The thing I want to change is most certainly not storing the energy all up in my head like the monks(partially yes, having that shit all up in my head and moving mountains), but also using some of it to just get the shit I want done done.

I did want it all stored as ojas to make me a demi-god(or close at least) a while back, the problem is that there is just too much to try and store all of it at once. But what's the use when you're constantly focussing on not using any of it for practical purposes? You will blow up and probably take your neighborhood with you.

Because we are not raised this way. We didn't have masters guiding us from birth to make us the most powerful beings we possibly could be.

We were told to do as we're told and stfu. There was little to no spiritual guidance for most of us so how the hell could we even begin to hope that we're strong enough for true unbroken strict celibacy?

So fucking is unfortunately necessary.

But nobody said what or who you should fuck.

Many of us want to fuck women when we have all this figured out. That's healthy it's what you're put here to do.

The rest want to fuck the world. We want to build up that energy and blow into the world and fuck it raw. Also what we're here for. To fuck the hell out of any challenge that's presented to us.

So take that energy of yours and fuck the shit out of the world in every possible way you can until your psychological dick hangs limp and sore from all the work, then think of how you're gonna fuck the world the next time you're out.