I'm tired of this, i'm on the verge of giving up, literally everything effect me

I'm an video editor... Currently I'm editing a music video, most clips are triggered plus the sound ambient some sort of moaning... Them thug dudes holding their nut, girl rubbing their body from breast to butt etc... the fucked up part is there's a clip client wanted to include is the girl with big tits bend over (not nudity) so i see the gap between her tits... I seriously can't do anything anymore... I'm tired of literally everything... My job, my mentality just went exhaustion... Were those consider relapse?

 

it's not entirely 18 rates... it just certain acts make me doubt, plus i'm the only video editor in this building... I seriously wanna kill myself if i just relapse over this.