Im struggling

Only a 1 day without pmo and I have huge urges to masturbate. I can resist it for now, mainly, becouse Im struggling with serious mental illnesses. Finally managed to contact hospital. Im afraid to take any meds but I definitely need some help against my anxiety, depression, panic attacks, nightmares, ocd etc. Im really bad situation now. I hope these mental issues arent csused by my porn addiction or if they are I hope im able to back to normal one day.

Might need benzodiazepines or something else.

Anyone else here have medication for mental health issues?

or anyone else whos suffering with bad mental disorders and porn addiction here?

Can porn break your brain permanently?

Is it safe to take meds if I you are porn addicted?

Someone please help me up if experienced something like this. I feel like Im dying soon, cant take this much longer.

 

I dont know what causes it, I dont really believe that theres any trauma behind it. Its just life has been full of disappointment and I have achieved nothing, porn addiction ruins my brain and I enjoy nothing in life, all of these negative thoughts 24/7 is driving me crazy, maybe that is one reason why Im so messed up. But porn is really a big part why I feel so bad. Dont know wheres this anxiety and ocd and others are coming from, I wish I could just get rid of it but Its like a cancer in my brain, I can do nothing about it.

Everyones saying to not take meds, and Im afriad of the side effects too but Im in really bad condition now and I need something to calm me down and get rid of this anxiety. I cant even leave my house.