I'm still confused

Hello guys,
My name is Kai123 and this is my 2nd day as a member of the NoFap community. I have relapsed two times today. The first time was during the evening when a random thought suddenly popped up tempting me to search up pornography about incestuous relationships. Then I came across this one video that really had me attracted towards it. It was really disgusting(thinking back on it), but at the time my desire was so strong that it didn't matter... I had to watch this video. The second time was during the night time after I had a big fight with my mother that it tempted me again to watch some other disgusting video.

Throughout this entire day, I've had so many things I wanted to accomplish, but was unable to due to me being in front of my laptop, phone, or TV all day. My addiction to PMO is already great, but I feel one of the main contributors to this addiction is my addiction for TV. I am looking for ways to contain it, but I feel that I am not serious enough about quitting it or NoFap. I feel as if... my desire and willpower are not strong enough. I am doing meditation, but am slacking off a lot mainly due to the fact that I feel I will look weird to other people while doing it. I also walk now in the morning to help me get a good morning exercise. However, none of this stuff is working because I feel as if I am not dedicated enough... Many times throughout the day, I have to consistently "delete my browser history" almost every single day. I am tired of doing it every single day and failing again.

I know this journey is going to be long as a habit that has been going for years, can't be finished within days or even months... but I am prepared to persevere(as cheesy as it sounds). Can you guys please give me good advice on how to overcome my bad habits because I am surrounded in a 24 x 7 environment where I am always exposed to TV. This causes me to watch it every single day, causing me to feel bored. Any advice is highly appreciated.

Thank you.