I'm starting to cry over it...

I think I'm in that boat right now. My longest streak since I started here was 23 days, and ever since I broke that, I haven't even come close to meeting it. I went back to not being able to make it a week.

Right now, however, I have somehow gotten my motivation back. I'm seeing direct benefits of no PMO and I feel strong right now. I'm on day 8 right now, I believe, and being that that's the longest streak I've had in a long time and I remember how incredibly hard it was to get here after just one failure that spiraled out of control, I soooo don't want to lose that. I know, now, after losing that 23 days, that even one screw up can ruin everything.

The only thing I can say that has helped me is stopped all sexual/wandering thoughts as soon as they come. Not a second later... right then. Immediately. That's the only thing that's helped me. Any time I get curious and think "well, I'm not gonna watch porn, but what if I did?" or something stupid like that, it spirals until the urges get too strong to handle. The only thing that helps me is to stop the train before it leaves the station. I've learned to tell myself, "If you're not going to have sex right now, there's absolutely no reason to be thinking about it."

Anyway, I'm sorry to hear you're struggling, dear. I hope you get your motivation back! It'll happen, it just might take some time.

 

I have had a similar experience. Reached a month without looking at porn and after I relapsed on day 30 I couldn't make it past a week to save my life. I had to really go over why I'm trying to stay pmo free. I also had to stop edging and still looking up stuff when on my streak. Now I'm more than half way to my goal of 30 days again.

 

U have to get off your fapchair and then burn it, smash it or whatever. Do what u did all over again and then your gonna see that same results. This time It should be easier cause you have experience! I think everyone has been through the hurdles like this.

 

It happens man, some of us take more time to get back on track, and we know how you feel, that feeling of failure really hurts.
The only good thing about hitting rock bottom is that your only option is to go up. It's really, really hard, but possible. Remember to get yourself busy, and think about how hurtful it is everytime you get an urge, you'll be fine as long as you're willing to defeat this addiction, good luck!

 

Most of you guys seem young. College etc. I'm 54. Stumbled on porn addiction little over 2 yrs ago. Convinced without a doubt that it is my worst affliction. Killed many aspects of life. Motivation,drive, alpha male effects. My moment to myself ,I thought, was my own little pleasures. Never put it together. Have had as much as a half year of no pmo then would go out on a whim. I'm ok looking guy. Ex paratrooper. Decently educated. You young men have the world by the balls if you can defeat your drive for porn. 95% don't even know its a problem yet. I keep showing my 17yr old son this pmo malady. I'm much older than most on here and I feel the HUGE difference after only acouple weeks or months. You are on to something here. Makes a big difference.

 

@zadvanceppa THANK YOU PPA! Sir! Paratroopers got balls of steel.!

 

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