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Discussion in 'Porn-Induced Sexual Dysfunctions' started by Free your mind, Mar 16, 2020.

  1. Free your mind

    Free your mind Fapstronaut

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    Im a bit lost, need some support...
    I almost rebooted by the end of last year.
    Had nice sex twice with a beautiful girl.
    After that things got complicated with her and we separated a bit. I feel bad because I fell in love with her, but for her it was just a game.
    I was slightly depressed and relapsed after 4 months of nofap. Twice the same day.
    4 days after we met again...I got hard, but lost erection after 2-3 min (on sildenafil btw.). I MO that evening without porn just to see if I can do it - I could.
    After that she got even more distant.

    Now Im in a flatline again. A month without PMO, but no libido at all, no morning wood (sometimes I wake up during the night with an erection).
    I will probably meet her again, but Im so scared what would happen.
    Did I blew it really hard? I was just one step to the cure.
     
  2. OliBeu

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    all i can say is RELAX! you put yourself way too much under preassure. i bet your penis is working fine!
     
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    Free your mind Fapstronaut

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    I really hope so. Btw had really severe PIED before for a few years. I finally managed to get rid of porn.
     
  4. OliBeu

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    i'm proud of you! be proud of yourself! i had severe problems with PE, i guess i still have it but i don't weight it so much anymore as i used to. and what helped me is to talk openly with my partner and friedns about it. People i'm close. it came something like a click in my brain where i realized i'm not the only one that got this problem and my anxiety vanished.
    It's kinda like.. Accept it as a part of you and it will disappear from alone enjoy the moment in "NOW" try not to think to much about the past. Thats just an illusion of your thinking and the future is not written yet
     
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    Free your mind Fapstronaut

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    Than you for wonderful words! They do make me feel better. :)
    I guess Im torn apart...struggling wirh reboot and unhappily in love.
    The latter seems to bother me more. As if I had the right partner (like I thought for the girl I was talking about), my reeboot would be peace of cake.
     
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  6. OliBeu

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    Dont know how to quote sorry
    *****
    After that things got complicated with her and we separated a bit. I feel bad because I fell in love with her, but for her it was just a game.
    I was slightly depressed and relapsed after 4 months of nofap. Twice the same day.
    4 days after we met again...I got hard, but lost erection after 2-3 min
    *****
    1) don't feel bad that you fall in love in someone
    2) You are human and it's totaly normal that you want to do yourself a small favor after you feel depressed. When done, acknowledge it and stop. You lost nothing because of that!
    3) Mate, as i read out. you have fallen in love but you know she doesn't have the exact feelings for you or for her it's just a game... it's normal that your brain subconsciously blocks you because of that. it doesn't have to be neccesarly PIED. this can be normal human behavior. You felt depressed and hurt and now you are scared because she acts more distant thats emotionaly alot to handle.

    You said it already you had good sex. this is still the case if you ask me it's not a faping problem more of an emotional or anxiaty
    Sorry for my bad english.

    Dude, you will do great i can feel that!
     
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    Free your mind Fapstronaut

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    Youre incredibly kind! It means a lot!
    Thats right, we had wonderful sex twice.
    Ot would be sooo much easier if she would be more emotionally attached, like I am.
    And of course that ED is surely emotionally induced, together with fapping. But isnt it always? Like PIED is always accompanied with at least some anxiety and emotional part of the story.

    I dont feel bad for falling in love. Im happy that I can stil feel this way. I feel bad because its obviously not mutual.

    Im confident that I will conquer this PIED shit. Just it was her that I want to help me with that. Wish I can tell her that I have this shit, but we are not close enough to talk about that and Im sure she would run away (which Im scared of).

    No matter how that thing with her ends, I know that I have to stay strong and dont fall into that PMO hole again, but thats the real struggle.

    I know that Im mixing 2 things together and my posts are blurry, but thats exactly how I feel. These 2 things (ED problem and love) bothers me together.

    Your last sentence means so much. :)
    I can not talk about it to anyone except here on the forum. This keeps my head above the water.
    Thank you!
     
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  8. OliBeu

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    Actually, you can always talk and be open and if she's half the person you hope she would be she will listen :). i think thats the strongest and maybe the most effective way to cure things.
    I mentioned before that i have PE.. and i had different other problems carring in me which i just kept for myself.
    Let me tell you a story that kinda changed alot.

    I had a GF and well... we broke up 3 months ago. with the PE i had severe Performance anxiety. and i have put myself so much under preassure that i also totaly ruined it for both of us. During the time we still were togethere. I went to a weekend trip with some friends. In the car ride back home which was like 4 hours i was talking with the guys about shits and gigs.
    they weren't even my closest friends. i know them for long time now but we don't have the connection that i would tell them deep intimate secrets. Suddenly i started the convo "guys i have a problem i want to talk about it... i have that girl i love but i got PE and severe performance anxiaty... in bed i can't last long" out of nowhere this one guy from which i tought he would have the stamina/endurance of a demigod said "yeah me too..." that was the moment where i realized that like every second or third man out there got PE.. After that "yeah me too.." my Anxiaty was vanished away and my endurance has trippeld. Or well lets say i was more sensitive to feel when i'm close to come and was able to pull it out to chill and continue after few seconds :D and i way able to enjoy everything around it. i was just present.

    Unfortunatlly it was to late for us :-/ but for next time i know it better :)

    So what i want to point out. Being open and saying out loud what concerns you can help extremly.

    I had a date last week with i was on day 32 or 34 of no PM i told her straight away "look girl i'm on a thing where i haven't touched my Dick for 34 days... it might happen that we need a second round pretty quick..." i had probably the best sex of my life. because i didn't had to keep a secret and put myself under preassure.

    who knows.. maybe she says something like "look, you are not the first with this issues, no worries" (no warranty on that!!)

    Edit:
    My friend, fortune favors the bold!
     
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    Yes, I believe it hepls. Just Im not so dirext with her. Ill see what can I do.
    Regardless, I will cure that PIED shit no matter what!
     
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    45 days in...
    Stopped seeing this girl, she is obviously not interested anymore..
    Didnt have sex since then..so I dont know about the PIED progress..
    But some libido started returning I guess, I feel a bit better :)
     

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