i'm in difficult situation

hello,
i'm 23 and i've been exposed to porn for the first time when i was 5 years old, but my porn addiction didn't pickup until i got to my early teens, which was around 11 so i've been watching porn on a regular basis since i was 11 up until 4 years ago, i was scrolling on youtube and came across a nofap video, and it was a turning point for me. i started my journey had few relapses and there were times when I gave up on myself and quitted entirely, but in the past year i took it serious as can stopped
watching porn entirely. but i have a dillema here, because i'm OCD i got a problem with body fluids and i couldn't bear the thought of having uncontrollable ejaculations, it was a huge suffering for me to wake up every time i had a wet dream all sticky with sperm that was part of the reason why i had relapses so i decided of cutting off porn, but keep masturbating so i could empty out of excsses sperm, so i kept my
masturbation habit for 2 times per week, but every time i masturbait i think of bits from porn scenes that i recolected from back where i used to watch porn so i could get off because i have no sexual experience i'm still a virgin, so i got nothing to think about except for porn, you can say use your imagination while you masturbait well iv'e tried it a few times and keep trying, it works partly for me now i have mental issues and anxieties that making it hard for me to make friends let alone approach girls and ,because i'm about to turn 24 and i have a lot of sexual frustration built in me ,i made a decision to go to a sex worker who knows she might help me with my anxieties of being touched and having sexual intercourse ,it's like when someone is anxious of flying the best solution for him is look his fear right in the eyes and fly, so i have anxiety of sexual intimacy
i should address my fear by putting my self in controlable intimate situations,
and so that i would be able to get out there and start live my life and ,have girlfriend etc. the problem is that I was scrolling through several escort service sites ,and there were some nude pictures ,it was quite expected that I would stumble upon it on this kind of sites ,i immediately closed the site ,but it raised a question in my head ,if in order to find a girl i would i have to scroll through these sites and look into some nudes so that i can find the girl that matches my type does it count as relapse.
I hope you read it all it was difficult for me to write all this because english
is not my native language and mainly because this issue is painful for me speak out on the internet.