Today, porn won. It got me when I had NoFap on a second tab. I was fighting the urge for at least two hours and out of the blue I was looking at non nude pictures and then suddenly my mind was locked and there was no turning back, all the shame was already there, and I gave in to porn. I don't know what's wrong with me honestly, I have a goal,I exercise, I take cold showers... did I just stop believing? Somehow I've got to start all the way back at day 1 without giving in to the chaser effect and I'm concerned because I need something that can keep my focus elsewhere. Or maybe I just need a reminder of why I started...I'm honestly not sure. For those of you that have had long streaks before, what do you do when the going gets rough? I can't focus on anything when the urge comes and it becomes a big waste of time because I'm stuck with that mindset.
Get up brush yourself off and go again. Know that you are doing this for you and your future! Keep going! Good Luck!
My longest streak ever was because I cut off my home internet, I just throw away the whole internet/wifi modem. Ended my contract at the provider. I had also no internet at my mobile, so I was free of everything. For any internet I did it at my work or the McDonald free wifi. My streak had a duration of 1 year. Why I relapsed? Because, I bought internet again, to do applications for a new job. I thought this would be more easier to find quicker a job. Easy peace to do some applications from your home. NOT! Believe me, cutting your home internet is the best solution, just end your internet contract, cutting only the cables is ineffective, because you will buy new one the same day.
Get out a piece of paper and hand write all the reasons that you want to quit PMO. Then write a message to yourself below that telling yourself that it's not worth it, you always feel like crap after and you will regret it. Keep the paper in your wallet. Read it every night and every morning, if you get an urge, pull the paper out and read it. On the back side of the paper write down all the positive things that happen each day when you don't PMO. Helps me, helps to have something physical that you can touch and feel and read when you get an urge, and no one can talk sense into me like I can haha.
